driving lessons from dad? = disaster

i've been trying to find a way to buy a car..but buying a car is so hard than i had expected..too many rules and regulations..now i know when one wana buy a car he/she need a valid driver licence...even if you had money to buy one...gosh ... maybe i should re-think about purchasing one. a friend of mine fatin called me in the office . she was working in other company so when she wana ask pricing on items i would be the one providing it..



.i told her about how hard it was getting car and told her i don't have driving lessons etc..then she asked me why not? and i told her i was a bit scared learning to drive...man she scold me ma~ ha2 she told me "no! there's no word for scared in my dictionary..you should learn it" then as i wana say my reasons she cut me off by saying "no! no! no such word as afraid , scared you should try first" *sigh* i know she was right...she told me to get a driving lessons ..get a valid licence then go buy a car...*thinking* maybe she is right...


so maybe i should just try learning some basic first...guess who'se gonna teach me...huh my dad...god...of all people...this is gonna be lessons from hell i tell ya...there's no way he's not gonna be strict plus it's his precious antique car we're talking here...one scratched, one bump or one error from me gonna be fatal..should i wear walkman just to prevent myself from hearing him yelling ?? huh one thing for sure i know...these gona be a long road of hell..unless i gave him money haha3 he's mood probably change a bit huh...yeah that's it...

saw my cousin tjah today

i saw my cousin tjah when i was on my way to cyber cafe with a friend of mine ..oh yeah thanx for paying for me ate...will pay you back somehow hehe...but not now i'm tight on cash...next week for sure ha~ *wink wink* nyways i saw her infront of photoplus in gdg with a bunch of people wearing the same outfit...baju kurung and guys wearing baju melayu..



i don't know what's the occasions was..and maybe they had function or something..., i greet and say hai to her..and she was that time on the phone but she manage to talked to me somehow haha3...kacau daun aku ah kalau org putihnya (bother the leaves bowh nonsense ey out..) so when kan bersalam tu kan , she actually wana kissed my hand instead of me kissed her hand...considering i'm a bit young haha2...i told her "ey salah eh tebalik..." ha3 then after kissing her hand tu kan , she asked to kissed cheek...whoa i'm so uh~ nervous coz i'm not used to it plus i was taken by surpised ma~ i was at that time after smoking some cigarrete so i'm a bit embarrassed by it if she smell my breath . so when she lean in i step back ha3 hope she did't mind. i know that she would preach me for smoking and i know that she would tell her parents about it..guarranteed..too late she know it...i told her coz i was in panic ha3 slip right away from my mouth..i really wana talked to her but gotta go ..in a hurry besides it's a good chance for me to escape from her preaching ha3 ~ phew~

if i'm the head you'll be my tail forever

you know what ..i do missed the myanmar girl. i don't wanna put her name here but i know you would remember her right..? no? how about i'm the "head" she's the "tail" hehe still remember that nick name i made. she's nice and shy but you know me i just couldn't resist not to say anything to her...so lonely when she's in classroom ..i know people in the class want to be friend with her but they shy to talk to her in english ..,



most often i always thinking about what to say to her before...i was so damn curious about her..lifestyles...country...etc..then that time we were having art exam.. she was sitting behind me..my heart just aching to talk and make a conversation..but damn, i don't know what to say...after i finished my drawing..i don;t know what to do..so gather my courage glancing at her. i took that chance to see her drawing.. she was still colouring though..uh~ she know how to draw people but she did'nt know how to mixed the colour of the skin. i kept silenced while she still colouring...after a while i just couldn't take it anymore, if she continue mixing colour blindlessly she ruin her drawing and grade . heh so i took that chance to gave her some tips adding the colour showed her how it works. i know in exam we shouldn't talk and all but who cares.


like i said, she draw people dancing in her country i supposed...*blink blink* i remember looking at it and uh said something like...


"nice drawing"

she looked at me smiling and said " thanx.."

"what is it?"

"what you mean what is it? it's people dancing traditional dance in my country"

"is it?"

"yeah"

"are you sure you're not drawing demons?"

"not demons it's people"

"why is the skin so red? are they wearing makeup? like they do in chinese opera?"

"no ..it's ugly isn't it?"

"no..its uh~yeah it's weird"

"maybe i should draw new one huh?"

"no u can't re-do it..not enuf time..."

"maybe i should erase the colour using eraser then?"

"nah you'll ruin ur drawing besides if you do that it'll make a hole on ur drawing"

*thinking so hard like her head gonna explode..ha3

at the end i gave her some tips...like adding some white colour etc2 and that's how she and i become friend...hey G.H ..do you remember how you befriended her ?

missed you too !

hey golden heart do you still remember our friend from myanmar? i'll bet you do heh..tonite i was seraching some paper inside my drawer and i found this letter...a letter she gave me before she transferred to other school.





dear XXXXXXXX,

how is your first day at school. was it great? i finally find my class. my first day at school i was quite boring. my class is mixed with form 5 aspirasi and 4 merak. and we have only 6 boys (form 4) and about 4 boys (form 5). the rest are girls. they are quite friendly but they all are speaking in malay so i'm bored. my form teacher teaches malay. her name is C. Hjh Laipah..she speak in malay..


i just tell my form teacher that i'm gonna transfer to ST..?????. because i don't want anyone to know, did you tell about me to all the girls (last year's) i don't want you to tell them, i only tell you and XXXXXXX (it's your name golden heart) that i'm gonna transfer. but it's okay if you have tell them . i thought Kartini is gonna change and Haimizah said she is gonna change to international school. are they just like me? what ever they are doing it's not my bussiness right? and whatever i'm doing it's not their bussiness too!


at first day at school i have to see some faces that i really wanted to see again..and some faces that i never wanted to see again. but anyway i have to play my roles of my life.


when i first met you i think you didn't change. what about me? i'm getting taller than usual. you know some of the girls ask me that how come i get this class.. all the girls are from 3 Cempaka and 3 Jasmine. i think they think any students from 3 Teratai can't get this class. i don't know what do they mean???? okey whatever they think..i think i'm not coming to school tomorrow because it's so boring..


missing you!!
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taz the tazmanian devil

whoa...it's 2 a.m already .. i was talking with a friend of mine on the phone for the whole 2 hours it's really making my ears numb...we had a fight last week..about something stupid...i was so jealous at her coz she was always busy and often hanging out with her bf. before it was always me who come first..who hang out with her etc2. taz was slow sometimes..heh~ sometimes she even did't realized when i'm angry or probably she pretended not to realized or something. she's like a sister i don't wanna have lol...she's innocent in some ways..



known her for 5 years already...whenever she got a problem i'll be her advisor but when i had one she always gave me some pointless advised...teasing me alot...she told me that if someday i end up alone..if my parents no longer with me..no one to accompany me in the house...she would like to live with me so that i'm not lonely. geeez ..that's a nice thing to say..."what if at that time you're married already?" i asked her..then she says "um~ i don't think so but ...if that happens you wouldn't mind if i bring along my husband..wouldn't you?" *panic* "uh~i'd be happy too uh~ i guess...even if you've got gazzilion of babies ..i wouldn't mind" lol...


first time i met taz is when we were working at the same shop..as usual i was acting like a bitch..giving order to newbies .. so when she did'nt do what i told her .. i scolded her..alot..like i said she's slow sometimes and innocent too..but i didn't realized since when we become close and be friend?...i asked her "whats the first impression you've got on me?" and all she said was "a bitch..you always angry and ordering me around..i really hate you that time.." then she asked me "what about you? what's your impression on me?" *thinking* "well..you're the 2nd worse worker i met..slow and looks like mentally ill or something coz always spacing out etc2" eheh

a howling? awu woof woof

tonite i ws sitting here alone..listening some loud music in the middle of the night..who cares about people complaining ...it's weekend so might as well have some fun. anyway...as i sitting here suddenly i heard something....something whistling and howling...at first i thought a dog or something...hum..?





i peeked at the window...its pitch dark out there...couldn't hear the sound anymore and it's fading away fast. there's nothing..nada..so i went back again to my desk . huh!! there it was again..the howling..people say when a dog howls there probably a ghost nearby..i'm not scared of that actually...so anyways i turned my music off and oh yeah ..now i can hear it so clearly now...gosh...no it's not a whistle nor a howling i heard..instead it was some people singing damn...their voice really uh~ um~ *thinking* i dont know what words should i use here..worse? irritating? annoying? heh~ maybe it's karaoke nite uh~ wait it should be pronounced "kera ok!" nite .. kekeke..

reason why she reject you.

u did everything to attract her attention but all of them doesn't work. saying sweet, romantic things or even preparing some romantic dinner. you even use some tricks that you read in a book. you told and confessed your true feelings for her and guess what ..she says no to you. you can't think of a reason on why she reject you..



1. she doesn't like you

yes...she do like your attention but not in a romantic way. she's not interested in having a relationship with you so you might as well just move on. you do all kinds of things for her just to get her attention but when a girl just not interested in you ..you might just give up because it's just wasting time. she probably like you as a friend and can't see you as a bf.



2. she got a bf already

you should check first whether she is single or not. only idiots rush in and confessed blindly. or perhaps ask her if she is still single..for you she might look single...just because you haven't seen her with a man doesn't mean she's one...she probably seeing someone else or interested with other guy.


3.she's not ready for a relationship

she might be single but not available. she's not interested and and not ready for a relationship. you want something more from her but she's just wanna have a friendship with you. if these happen don't try to force her to fall for you..


4.she likes women

yeah..she's just not into men. she's not interested in having a relationship with men due to her other sexual preference. don't even think about trying to change her mind or saying you can change the way her thinking just by having you as a bf. bragging to her how nice and treat you nice isn't going anywhere.


5.she's still in love with her x-bf

even though he's just an x-bf doesnt mean she doesn't have some feelings for him. women usually couldn't forget their x or moreover their first lover. she might trying to work things out with you but somehow she just could't overcome her feelings just yet.


6. you're too boring

women likes men to be mysterious and fun to be with. nobody likes to have a boring relationship, which everyday doing same things or routine. similarities or doing something both of you can enjoy is important, if not then you just not meant for her.


7.work is her priority

she's focussing on her work and not ready for a relationship just yet. she's seriously trying or enjoying herself to work rather than being with you.


8.she doesn't know you that well

some guys don't spend the needed time to introduce himself to her. they just confessed in a rush without giving girls a chance to know them. no girls like to have relationship with strangers or people they barely know.


9. she doesn't see you as her future man or husband

you might be a perfect bf but probably lack of the responsibilities as a future man or husband. some women tends to thinks their future ..thinking whether or not you are perfect for the job. some women thinks it's a serious matter who they should choose to have relationship with..they need to feel secure. but if you can't provide it well move on...


10. you're too naughty and wild for her

she knows that you got these habit on girls. you just couldn't resist looking other women passing by...flirting here and there. she probably feel disgusted when you talk dirty while you feel sexy about it. don't do things like that coz some women prefer a decent conversation . she might get scared or thinks that you're just a pervert.

when the road taken over by the apes..

before me and my fren taz were walking towards the mall in gdg area...we decided to hang out at the mall and see some stuff that we wanna buy...on our way across the mall..we were interrupted by a bunch of guys inside their car passing through the road. we stopped and actually was shocked by their manners. they were inside their wrecked car , we can see that there are around 5 guys. as we stopped and just stands


there at the side of the road the guys shout at us acting like a bunch of apes , trying to flirt and make a noise. taz was a bit scared by it...and i was furious with how they act. it's just uncivilized so i gave them the hand sign saying "FUCK YOU!!" which make the matter worse anyways..ha3 they started to reversed and saying something to us ..which i couldn't remember what or i couldn't understand what the hell they were sayin..i remember they were saying stuff like "jual mahal jua", helo~ first of all do we looked like we're selling something meh? besides do all the girls looked that cheap kh? really dude flirting like that doesn't get you anywhere, so they stopped at the middle of the road .. looking pissed at us .. duh~ like i care..anyways guys like these is just a sore eyes for me...it really wanna make me take some metal rod and slam it on their head and manhood. if they wana flirt .. do it with a proper manner ..not acting like apes and cave men. it's just soo damn uncivilized like going back in the old age. for certain it's against the rules to drive and act your way like that on the road. thank god the road is not buzy with others cars, if they continue doing this they probably gonna bump other cars behind. i don't think i see a bunch of girls flirting like that to guys though..

i hate people sometimes...heck i really myself for it..

i know that no one is perfect but people can do better if they try ..right..but some people so comfortable with themself ..they don't wanna change.

why is it when i try to be friendly...guys seems to missunderstood it as being flirty..whats wrong with that? guys that i know try to do something overboard..if you wana be friend then act like a fucking damn friend..don't talk dirty okay! if you gonna get laid then you should find yourself a gf..and please when i say get yourself gf that doesnt mean you should ask me to be one..hell it's not my problem if you're horny ..dog~ ..wait i shouldn't compare you to dog coz i know dog have a better manner that you do..plus i think even the ugliest dog can be too damn cute than you.




people shouldn't force other people to love...that is their own feelings. who the fuck says "i wana be frens with you" and act like a damn horny demon? friend should be someone you should treasure not someone who you can easily get a FUCK ... if you wana be friend with someone don't try to manipulate them ..is it so hard to be sincere nowadays...

when a friend needed help dont ask them like "yea i can do that but u got to do something for me..on teh bed" man how cheap is that..anyways don't confessed your fucking feelings to people who are not interested in you..instead find out first whether he/she is really intersted in you. who the hell wana date to someone they don't really know..strangers..a bitch,a whore maybe but not some people. before you can manage to ask or even a date .. you should know if it's only one sided. put your BRAIN in your head not put it in your FUCKING manhood.

don't beg when you should know by now she is not interested in you..it can annoyed her when she just treat you like a friend. if you still continue doing these then you shouldn't have a girl for a friend ..not even one..sooner or later she probably get tired of you a leave you with your fucking world.

you're my angel..you're my devil

"what is it with her?" i asked that question over and over again...in my head...sooner or later people will think im going nuts...what makes her so special...what makes her precious?...no one ever touch my heart like you did. so fucked up...and don't look at me with that puppy eyes..it's making me weak inside.

i couldn't believed i fall for you...when i knew i shouldn't have...when i knew it wouldn't work out...at first i don't know these feeling i had...i dont want to understand it...i don't want to feel it..certainly i don't need it from you




why is it everytime i saw your face ..i feel like want to hurt you...want to make you hate me...want to scold you till you cry...by doing that i feel good, i feel satisfied..but somehow part of me feel guilty...feel sadness

she is my angel, she got that innocent side of her...kind and sweet. i don't know why exactly you wanna get close to a messed up person like me...why are you keep on trying when i said you shouldn't bother me. no..you shouldn't ask your friend about me because it's just useless. it's true what my cousin said...if you hate a person ..sooner or later you would fall for them..the stronger the hate means the stronger the love...heh i did'nt believed it at first but now i know ..now i know..

i never shed a tears for a guy...but you...you're different. i cried for you when i missed you, i cried for you when i feel hurt...i was so damn worried when i thought that i could lose you.

the day that i found out about it, i did'nt know what to do..., you are the first person i fall for, in my heart i really wanted you to loved me back but i guess it difficult for you and things got really complicated. i back away giving you the space you needed...which is hard for me to do.

wherever you are right now..i hope you remember me..., even if you don't it doesnt really matter anymore. because life just goes on with or without you .

im not sure if i ever forgive you, should i? shouldn't i? but i know one thing is true..you're the best thing ever happened to me.*smile*

reason why you should reject him on first date

1.he always glancing and staring your boobs and ass. as if he's acting like a horny hungry dog, drooling all over the place and staring at your two buns.

2. he talks about his vacation trip to you most of the time. from the way he talks it show that he travels a lot from all over the place..one of his favourite stop is thailand and he even confessed to you that he got some difficulties on his blood test. you should think twice about it who knows he's infected with h.i.v positive. don't reserve yourself with one way ticket to hell..!




3. he's too short for you..i mean it..he's way too short. it won't be an issue for you if height doesn't matter...but for some people they would feel awkward and uncomfortable with it. as if you're the tallest building around like petronas twin tower and he's just one of those building below level..or like you are up there breathing a fresh air while he's down there breathing your armpit smelly odour..wha3

4. you noticed that he keep on looking and staring pretty , sweet and sexy women. his eyeballs ready to bulge from its socket when he see them.

5. "beware of the hands" .. he's hands keep on crawling and creeping from here and there, trying to hold your hands and your waist but you only knows him just for half an hour. it's like he got hands with a life of it's own.

6. he confessed to you that he don't want to have a date with you, but despite of that he still date you anyway because of pity..

7. when you order a coke to drink and he order a carlsberg.

8. he talks about his family who owned a business. he told you that his father owned a factory and how rich his grandfather was...but when the dinner bills arrived he didn't bother to pay for you.

new worker dilemma...

oh my god~ look! it's CHUCKY !!!~,....wait no..it's a ghost...no that's not it either...a zombie maybe..oh wait lol it's just a new worker..*PHEW~~!*


as the one who in charge of the shop, i was acting like a bitch to new workers.., teaching them is not hard but making them understand is. no matter how many explaination you gave .. it's useless to people who didn't want to listened or just people who didn't want to do their work




seriously..., feels like talking to one of those dolls who just stares at you, no sound..not even a word..they just nodding their empty head up..and down...left..to right...!! is saying " sorry can you explain to me again on how these things work?" hard to say?..i guess they're the kind of dolls with a lips made up of wood, can't even move or smile..thank god that they didn't turn into those creepy CHUCKY dolls.., lol...


some of the new worker i teach also act uh~ how to put it..? "the living dead" no souls..just movement. it's like teaching a zombie , preaching them on what's good and bad thing to do.., like for example i did told them not to just staring costumer and drooling. eheh..coz some of the worker actually drooling whenever they see a hot gut ops...guys lol...even when they're is no costumer in the shop, i can see slight movement from them.


or a new worker who just standing and standing and standing..~ what? when i say just standing i really mean it. they just stands like a guard eyeing people and costumer like they never see a human before. its like having a gargoyle or statue of liberty in the shop. doom i tell ya! doom~


of all the categories above ...guess which i am when i was a new worker before...eheh..none of the above i guess. i think i imagine myself as..uh~ lemme see..have you ever seen "lord of the ring before" now..remember the creature in the movie, i couldn't remember much about it either but im like that creature who is very sneaky, desiring the power of the ring..in these case im desiring the higher salary ma..lol...eheh " my precious~ !!!!"


p.s: the character above is fiction..if someone i know bothered by these ..it's not really my intention to be a super bitch..lol.. ehem!! after all you guys are my precious..precious...zombie...opps...workers. and no zombies...ops i did it again~ workers were harm in the making of this post..*crossing finger*