Sunday, November 16, 2008
you're my angel..you're my devil
"what is it with her?" i asked that question over and over again...in my head...sooner or later people will think im going nuts...what makes her so special...what makes her precious?...no one ever touch my heart like you did. so fucked up...and don't look at me with that puppy eyes..it's making me weak inside.
i couldn't believed i fall for you...when i knew i shouldn't have...when i knew it wouldn't work out...at first i don't know these feeling i had...i dont want to understand it...i don't want to feel it..certainly i don't need it from you
why is it everytime i saw your face ..i feel like want to hurt you...want to make you hate me...want to scold you till you cry...by doing that i feel good, i feel satisfied..but somehow part of me feel guilty...feel sadness
she is my angel, she got that innocent side of her...kind and sweet. i don't know why exactly you wanna get close to a messed up person like me...why are you keep on trying when i said you shouldn't bother me. no..you shouldn't ask your friend about me because it's just useless. it's true what my cousin said...if you hate a person ..sooner or later you would fall for them..the stronger the hate means the stronger the love...heh i did'nt believed it at first but now i know ..now i know..
i never shed a tears for a guy...but you...you're different. i cried for you when i missed you, i cried for you when i feel hurt...i was so damn worried when i thought that i could lose you.
the day that i found out about it, i did'nt know what to do..., you are the first person i fall for, in my heart i really wanted you to loved me back but i guess it difficult for you and things got really complicated. i back away giving you the space you needed...which is hard for me to do.
wherever you are right now..i hope you remember me..., even if you don't it doesnt really matter anymore. because life just goes on with or without you .
im not sure if i ever forgive you, should i? shouldn't i? but i know one thing is true..you're the best thing ever happened to me.*smile*
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