Wishing its just nightmare

I thought u just having a small fever, turns up im deadly wrong, i wish i cn turn back time, hoping to erase all the bad memories u had..Mom, i missed u so much, it hurts~ , i was a pain, i did so many mistakes, i hurt u before u passed away..I wanted to ask for forgiveness, sadly i was too late..I cn never change that, i wana do lots things with u, i wana buy things u wanted , i kno u had too many hardship b4, u are always so nice even if ppl r being mean, u r always quiet bt even so u always tell your stories to me,



i hate my dad for treating u like maid..Hate him for making u work and lack of sleep, i often advice u nt to let him do that, u deserve to b treated better. Bt i guess as his "wife" u do things ur own way..U put up with his attitude until the end.., being a good wife and being a good mother..U even did everything u cn to me. I don't kno how u cn be so soft to ppl like us, u r an orphan i guess u don't want to be left alone.., dad was all u got..Having me and all, u who always prepared all the things for us, u who always gv money to us, u who always there to help us, u r everything to me, u who always listened to me, u who always talk about ppl u knew, nw that ur gone..I got nothing to look forward to, i work for u, i earn money for u, i guess things jz happen, no matter wat i do, it wont bring u bck, it wont turn back time, it wont change the fact that ur already gone..,

Immature

That's just so unfair..When people like me want to cry..Then let me cry my heart out..Why do i need to hold back my tears for your sake?, i often saw your eyes was swollen dad and i knew u cried, u think i didn't notice..? Sometimes i really think that u r stil immature, i don't mind if u shout or screamed at kid's but don't u think u r going over board by threatening them like punching or slapping them? I kno u cn, i kno ur sad, i kno u don't like kid's but u cn be better than that, at least be patience and try to control ur anger..After all they're just kid's.



yeah, i did punched them,kicked or slapping them bt only if they really did something wrong..I punished them for a reason , unlike u, don't u think that what u do and what u said to the kid's reflect to the parents too, why couldn't u pay someone who helped u by being nice? It's nt dat hard.., u really letting their spirit down.., it really brings up some unwanted memories when i was still a kid, u often said all u did back then was meant to teach me, huh? Teach me wat exactly? Teach me to hate u ?,