my school day's - danny and my chatroom friend joan

i had these friend of mine..i knew her from chatroom.., i considered her as a friend but not as close as bestfriend. she's chinese and her name was joan. she's the same age as mine which is 17 at that time. she's studying from a different school and i never meet her face to face. i told danny about her and he seems interested to meet her , i'm not the person who can get jealous so easily, i don't see danny and me as an item



even though we kissed alot. so i told joan all about danny. that night joan had a party in her house..she invite me and danny to come and have fun. since i didn't want to go..danny went by himself. i told him to behave, and spare me a detail.


that morning i talked to danny about the party. he said it was okay.

me: "cmon i told you to spare me a detail so spill it out"

danny: "really ..the party was just okay~"

me: "okay..so how is she look like? is she pretty.. ?"

danny: "uh~ not really.."

me: "u know what?"

danny: "what?"

me: "she called me last nite after you went home"

danny: "okay~ and what did she say to you?"

me: "eheh she told me about the kiss.."

danny: "oh yeah i did kissed her lastnite.."

me: "yea ..so hows the kiss?"

danny: "okay ..i guess.."

me: " just okay..huh? anyway she told me that she had a crush on you..seems to me that you had an admirer"

danny: "what..really? she told you that?"

me: "yeah..she did..cmon tell me is she pretty..she asked me if you're available eheh i think she wanna be your gf..so what's you're answer?"

danny: "uh~ just say i'm unavailable..i've got someone..anything.."

me: "how come?"

danny; "to tell you the truth .. she's not my taste..she's a bit uh~"

me: "a bit..?"

danny: "chubby..~"

me: "cmon danny chubby is cute~ like teddy bear eheh"

danny: : "whatever .. i just.. really she's not my taste'

me: "ic..so..between me and her who would you prefer to choose?"

danny: "you~"

me: " and why? im also a bit chubby for you're taste"

danny: "but you're sexier than her.."

me: "you're such an asshole sometimes but i'll take that as a compliment.."

danny: "do me a favour.. when she calls you just tell her im with someone ..okay?"

me: "no..no these is your mess so you tell her yourself"


to be honest i am a bit jealous but somehow it's not really a big deal for me. he can see and kiss anyone he likes. it doesn't bother me much. not sure whether we are an item or we aren't so i just flow with it. it's not like we're seriously in love or anything.


me, tina and some of the classmate went to the library . no not to read a books, we just sat there and pretend to read a book. ehe it's so comfortable in the library..got airconditioner thats why most of the time i like to hang out in the library. so there i am talking and joking around when suddenly i got a msg from joan "danny talked to me the other day..btw i play my game..and you play you're game!" ..i really didn't understand what she meant by that..is she angry ? is she jealous? what game?

my school day's - tina and danny

actually tina have an extra class today for maths..that's in period 6..while me , i have and extra class for science period 7..., i did told her that if she don't want to attend the extra class she might as well absent and stay at home.., bad news for me..she went to school anyway, it's not that



i don't like her to go to school..i'ts just that i really wanna talk to danny today..it's hard when talking to danny when tina is around. i know that she hate him..she really hate his guts.., everytime when me and tina went to the library ..danny would go towards me and sat near me. which making me quite uncomfortable.., even if danny try to make a conversation with her , she just stay quite. i just hope that danny wont sit near me whenever tina is around.


i admit i do have some feelings for danny, so i gather my courage and confessed my love to him. i'm not sure what exactly his answer was but he did try to be closer to me. joking around and talking on the phone.

no way im gonna cheat exam ..ever again!

tina called me about the examination, we promised to meet tommorrow at school to see mrs. christine our school teacher.

me: "why bother? don't you think it's too late already too start studying now?"

tina: "i know~ but it doesn't hurt to try besides i've got a few question that i don't understand.."

me: "heh~ it's a waste of time and you know it.., why don't you just cheat.."




tina: "cheating is for a looser..."

me: "ah~that's hurt..."

tina: "didn't you remember last year..you and annie were caught cheating during the exam.."

me: "what about it?"

tina: "duh~ thank god the principal just gave you a detention..and..you should be glad he didn't drop you from the examination.."

me: "believe me there's no way i'm gonna cheat these year..i learn my lesson"

tina: "really? how come?"

me: "when me and annie in a detention room .. he lectured us for the whole 2 hours ..non-stop..i felt like i was dying...dying from boredom..it's like he's trying to kill me slowly with his speech and lecture"

tina: "eheh it couldn't be that bad.."

love

love is something that can make you happy and can be something that frustrate you.



if you love someone, you will always thinking about him/her, always wondering what he/she do at this hour.

why would you say goodbye when things is not going your way? wouldn't it be better if you just try..what kind of love that gives up so easily? backing off like a coward and without any effort is not a real love.

why would you say goodbye and break-up if you know you couldn't forget him/her?

love is something that turns bitter into sweet, dust into gold, poison into cure, suffering into pleasure,

you dont force someone to love. because love is something that comes from heart.

a person who says "i love you" easily is someone who dont know how to appreciate love . just like a word without meaning.

girls dont like in a guy

guys who is weak . thin and doesnt do workout.

not athletic and dont know anything about sports.

guys who gave up easily or just gave up before he even start.

guys who is lazy to find a job/work

dont have a car.

guys who'se not interested in music.

guys who dont know how to make a joke and dont have any sense of humour.

guys who dont know anything about computer and any modern tech.

guys who always enjoy going to the club every night.

guys who is not romantic.

guys who always giving an excuse.

what girls like in a guy

girls likes a guy who got a nice body. always workout in s gym

athletic and knows sport. football, basketball, etc

smart and intelligent.

guys who got a job/work.

guys who got a car.

guys who knows how to make a joke and conversation.

guys who knows how to operate computer.

guys who knows how to respect other people.

guys who is confident.

guys who knows how to have fun.

guys who knows how to manage he's financial.

seeing her crying..is like seeing a "TITANIC" sinking..lol

today i met my friend at CH shop, i was looking forward to meet her because it really makes me happy whenever i see her. she always talking non-stop..some people probably would say she's annoying for that but not for me, infact i like people who talks alot. so most often when i went to her shop she would automatically went up toward me but somehow today was different..um when i went to see her , she was sitting down at the counter looking at her hp, she hasnt noticed me yet but when i looked closely at her, i saw tears ran down her cheek..thats when i know that something was wrong.




i was surprised at first, when i saw she was crying...her eyes were swollen red. so i asked her why is she crying. she said she was having a fight with her bf..lol..and there i was thinking that something really bad happened.


there i was trying to make her feel better , i really dont know what to do..what to say.., plus my other friend mitchelle really not helping me with this. she was playing some sentimental song at the background .. what is she trying to do?


after a while my friend qilah stopped crying..*phew*~

me: "so are you okay now?"

Q: "yeah, im okay~"

me: "good..."

Q: "yesterday you said want t buy necklace at the mall.."

me: "yeah..but i change my mind"

Q: "why?"

me: "dude..i dont want to go to the mall with a crying girl next to me..people might think that im the one who bullied you duh~"

Q: "all that crying makes me hungry..can you go with me to buy food..i really dont wanna go alone"

me: "whoa~ thats um..weird, you still have appetite huh?"

Q: "i'm hungry so cmon"


we went to the restaurant and we were looking at the menu. it's not really crowded but still there were at least ten people inside . so we sat and took some order and waiting for the food to arrive.

Q: "you know..i really dont know what to do if he breakup with me"

me: "oh cmon just find another guy..you can get any guys you want.."

Q: "but..i really love him..he's nice and kind to me"

me: "tell me whats the reason he broke-up with you?"

Q: "well he said to me that last nite i acted like a bitch"

me: "how come he said that..did you really acted like that last nite?"

Q: "no.. i dont think so...,all i did was looking inside his wallet"

me: "are you serious? he broke-up with you because of that? thats stupid"

Q: "maybe he's right i'm the one to be blamed, i should ask him first.."

me: "cmon it's not like you're having an affair"

Q: "i really want him back"


*oh no!..she started to cry again...what should i do? ..


me: "u know .. i never could understand why some girl crying for a guy.."

Q: "well i just couldn't help it"


*oh man...people are looking at us...maybe i should just hide under the table and pretend that i dropped something ..


Q: "oh god~ wish that i could stop crying..people are staring at me..., uh hey.. what are u doing down there?!! "

me: "oh nothing...*smile* i think i dropped something"

Q: "what is it? let me help you find it "

me: "my face.. i think i dropped my face.."

things a guy should know about women

dont interrupted a women when she talk, instead just listen to what they say, try showing her that you're interested.

when you need them to do something dont say it like you're ordering like "open the door", "make me a coffee" instead why not say "can you please open the door for me", "can you please make me a coffee" ,

dont tell an x-rated joke or a dirty joke because some women found that its annoying. you dont want to scare them away .

no women likes a guy who'se temper is like a volcano, saying bad thing and criticize people.

no women likes a control freak. yes..you can control them but no..when you try to control every single thing that she does. every people need their own space and by taking away their space you might suffocated them.

women likes a guy to show their emotion. nobody likes to go out and date a robot.

no women likes a poor hygenic guys..for god sake..dont pick you're nose infront of us..,

women dont like when a guy tells them how fat she looks because some women is sensitive with their body weight.

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no such thing as perfect happy family..

since i was a child , i was given love and attention from my mom. i am close to my mom than my dad ever was. my mom never got angry with me or even laid a hand on me even though i made a mistake. all she do was giving me advice. probably she was worried that im gonna ranaway or something..,

it's different from my father case, whenever i made a mistake he would get angry. he rarely laid a hand on me but there's a time he would just use his belt just for making a point not to disobey him. it was like living in a school where my father is the principal and my mom is his secretery..and me, i'm just a student who need to be dicipline. everything had to be his way . his rules,




my father dont really like a kids. for him a kid is hard to control, and having to grow up with that kind of father is not easy..he's very hot tempered, there's time when he got angry with my mom, when mom coming home late, if she's talking too long on the phone or did't do housework properly ..he would got angry. sometimes to the point that he would slap her infront of me, i just can't stand it when he starts yelling, saying things that he should't infront of me. when he's in a bad mood, he starts yelling, crashing things and at that time i was so scared of him..i couldn't do anything when i saw my mom crying because of him. i dont know what to do before...


now..its all different..i'm not a small child anymore and surely not a crying baby like i used to be. i'm taller and bigger than him, hopefully stronger too..., before i kept thinking paying back what my father did to me..., what he did to my mom..,somehow he just change a bit..i dont know when he started to change but it's good thing he did coz i keep reminding myself that if he ever lay a hand again to my mom than these time i wont cry and just watch him do whatever he want..these time i will protect her even if its mean doing it the hard way...,

being single child is it good or bad?

i'm shy when i was in primary school but i'm friendly.. i joke and make people laugh alot so making friends is not a problem for me. some of my friends told me that im so lucky being a single child, and some of them teased me, calling me "spoilt child", i am what you can call a teacher's pet coz most often i do whatever my teacher ask me to do. paying attention and having good grades just to impress them. i wanted to impress my parents but i dont think they care much about my grade. whether im good or bad it doesnt matter. no brother or sister to teach me at home,



i can't really ask my parents to teach me my schoolwork so i had to study myself, solving problem by myself because both of my parents are not really educated, and im not sure if they're really care whether im doing well at school because whenever i showed them my report card they dont seem to care, just handed it to them and get them to signed it, thats all to it, no praise or no complain, i can get what i wanted as long as it's not expensive coz i know they don't have the money to buy expensive things.


both my parents really care with whom i befriend with, whom im going out with, they usually wont let me go out if they feel that my friends is not good for me. especially when it comes to guys, whenever i befriended a guy they would question me alot. everytime when i talked to guys my dad would barged in and gave them a menacing look, my relatives often asked me if i had a boyfriend or if i ever get married ,now how am i supposed to do that when i had two security guard keep eyeing me (mom& dad) :P,


i am honest to both my parents but there's a time i lied to them as well, there's a time when i told my parents that i got an extra school but actually i was meeting a guy, or just hanging around my friends.

i smoke , i drink behind their backs, i escaped from school . i dont know why i did that probably because i wanted them to know that i need some space. i need some freedom.