Tuesday, October 7, 2008
no such thing as perfect happy family..
since i was a child , i was given love and attention from my mom. i am close to my mom than my dad ever was. my mom never got angry with me or even laid a hand on me even though i made a mistake. all she do was giving me advice. probably she was worried that im gonna ranaway or something..,
it's different from my father case, whenever i made a mistake he would get angry. he rarely laid a hand on me but there's a time he would just use his belt just for making a point not to disobey him. it was like living in a school where my father is the principal and my mom is his secretery..and me, i'm just a student who need to be dicipline. everything had to be his way . his rules,
my father dont really like a kids. for him a kid is hard to control, and having to grow up with that kind of father is not easy..he's very hot tempered, there's time when he got angry with my mom, when mom coming home late, if she's talking too long on the phone or did't do housework properly ..he would got angry. sometimes to the point that he would slap her infront of me, i just can't stand it when he starts yelling, saying things that he should't infront of me. when he's in a bad mood, he starts yelling, crashing things and at that time i was so scared of him..i couldn't do anything when i saw my mom crying because of him. i dont know what to do before...
now..its all different..i'm not a small child anymore and surely not a crying baby like i used to be. i'm taller and bigger than him, hopefully stronger too..., before i kept thinking paying back what my father did to me..., what he did to my mom..,somehow he just change a bit..i dont know when he started to change but it's good thing he did coz i keep reminding myself that if he ever lay a hand again to my mom than these time i wont cry and just watch him do whatever he want..these time i will protect her even if its mean doing it the hard way...,
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