Well, that morning like always, i boiled some hot water for my boss to drink,..Then did my work as usual, putting some document inside a file, had to calculate list of stock pricing for the auditor. Suddenly, my spider sensor sense something, jeng3...its like i saw someone familiar, kinda looks like an elf,no..Um..Boogeyman? Hold on~ owh si damit....Um....? Maybe my eyes playing tricks on me, as u can see im nt a morning person, kinda sleepy lagi, so got double vision ma~ i adjust my vision to 100% n zoom in, adjusting my super sonic ear and concentrated on the target,


yeah,its him alright, si damit...What does he want? A truce ? Keep on dreaming old man. I point my ultra violet ray canon towards him, and lock on the target. *no way he's gona escape these baby ray!" , push the launch button n "BOOOM!" ,

Lyric from claymore

Ah~ traversing over many nights,
frozen dreams and fading tears,
love me,
i cannot love anyone,
but i hate myself too,
i still don't see the end after walking this far,
dragging along the memories of the past,
what colour will this body be tainted by?
I search for that answer,

what the hell do u need me for?

i don't know what to do...what to believe...anymore...you told me long time ago that you wanted me to be your girl...i was so stupid not to realize what you felt before...without thinking i told you not to see me again...not to call...msg...i said something awful that made you cry...i did'nt realize it was your real feelings...how am i supposed to know? we both got our own problems, we both got hurt from love alot. we both got so many breakups...what we had is nothing more than a game, where we can relieved each other sadness...pleasure...after a long silence...despite i told you not to see me...u did anyway...you got her as the one you love...i hate the bitch...i hate you...but i don't want to waste my time anymore...though you got her already...you still want me...for what? lust? pleasure? i'm not a player anymore..at least i think that way...we got that same problem...commitment phobia...can't stay in a relationship too long...fear of trust...which i hate...now that you told me you are over with her...you came to see me again...and now i don't know what for? i can't do what you ask me to do...i don't feel anymore love in me left...i avoid love, i ranaway from love, i hate love ... it hurts..its painful...but i won't say i never fall in love again...it takes times to heal...the wound just kept bigger and bigger.

nothingness

i really wanna go see my real family..where they lived...what they do for living...getting to know my real brothers and sisters...i wanted to know more about my half brothers and sisters too...1st wife...2nd wife...3rd wife...even his 4th wife...anything...anything about grandparents background...i got no idea what they're doing right now!! ma~ aku tau aku nda tau latar belakang mu, kehidupan mu, kesusahan dan kesenangan mu...but i hope ur doing okay ryte now...i miss you even though i don't know you that well...we only see each other like a year or two...but why do i feel like missing you tonite? if brother sam kahwin these may would you be there? i'm not sure if ma pernah jumpa si amoi...coz i know she probably eager to see you...that little sister of mine tend to be rebellious sometimes...just like me...i guess...btw ma~ i'm not sure if he is for real or not...but i don't like "D" ... he came to see me before...claiming he's my half brother...but...why the hell he did that to me? is it even aloud? i don't think so...whatever happen to him? when ayah~ passed away long time ago...nobody told me about it...so thats why i never jumpa ia anymore ...i missed him too..how he hug me, how he talked to me...all i knew about him is that he got a moustache..thats it...i couldn't remember his face though...god damn it yan~!!!! ma~ i'm really worried here...*eskimo kiss*...when i got nothing here anymore ..would you take me with you.? anywhere is fine...!!!!!!!

Auditor blues

Damn~ every beginning of the year, i had to prepare stocklist and prices on each of the item that we sell, had to type and print them, it was so many that i had to brought back home in order to finish it by the end of these month.


this year got so much to do so the manager asked one of d staff in beribi to help me type half of d stocklist. I'm okay with it but as i re-checked the list of pricing she did, most of the total got mistakes..So i had to asked her to check it again and print the new one..I'm nt sure when will d auditor gona come but i was hoping that she finish it by these weekend...

U never learn your lesson

Well mr. Playboy, what is it that u want in life? Some people jz don't kno wat their doing, if he got sum1 he love, then he shouldn't hv an affair anymo, nw both of d girls *his fiance n gf* left him at d same time.


i guess he never learn his lesson, ryte after the breakup, he went to c me, talking about his miserable life, instead of talkin, y nt he just go to the fiance, n try to settle things, bt he seems pretty much ok, he told me "he is frustrated about the breakup bt at d same time felt happy!" so much 4 love..,

Am i just a replacement?

Do u ever think about love? I do.., like most of the time i often asked myself a question, do i deserve "love"? Am i worthed to be with? Cn i satisfy the person whose in "love" with me? Do u really "love" me for me or am i just sum1 who r just replacement frm ur lost love?


i know that i am nt perfect, nt the same with ur previous lover and ex's , i admit i cn be total ass sumtimes, a bad person with a bad habit, i need 2 kno dat person, if i like them, i cherish,protect n always gv them support. I'm considerate on ppl's feeling rather than mine, bt sumtimes i tend to b selfish, i'm nt the kind of girl easily fall for love, its nt easy to gain my trust. Don't u tink "love" is jz a word, u need to show how deep ur "love" is, are u willing to sacrifice everything to protect it, what good "love" is when u don't kno how to appreciate it? Is love only for lust?

me back then~

#4~kate moennig a.k.a shane (Lword)

so~ HOT! HOT! HOT! damn~ i just wish there would be more Lword for me to watch but unfortunately season six gonna be the end of it..gosh~ no..lword means no..kate moennig? no shane? ugh~ can stand it i tell ya...!

#3~kate moennig a.k.a shane (Lword)

#2~kate moennig a.k.a shane (Lword)

kate moennig a.k.a shane (Lword)