where life goes on and on !

we're just friends and nothing more!

first you asked me to be your friend,
then you asked me to be your special girlfriend,
not long after that you wanted me to marry you?
you even had these fantasy of having a baby with me,
come on..,
what's the rush?
is the world gonna end or something?




first of all, when you asked me to be your friend, i said to myself
whay not?, i mean ... having a friend is nice, so yeah...i accepted you for being
a friend...

then after couple of months, u started to change...
you try to get closer to me...
it's making me uncomfortable, but since you're a friend i thought it was normal
out of the blue , u surprised me by telling me..."can you be my gf?"
or "can i be your bf?"

i didn't give you any answer , so i change the subject quickly,
day after day , you keep coming and asking the same thing,
god..how annoying can you be, yes you're nice, yes you're gentlemen enough,
but no, i just cant imagine you being my bf,
yes im picky, so i think it's nothing wrong for me being picky,
if i wanna spent my whole day, or getting intimate with a guy,
then it should be the guy i wanna be with, the one i really love,
but still you keep asking ,

then when i told you " sorry , i can't be your gf, to be honest i wanted you as a friend and nothing more than that."
you try to change the subject but still i keep telling you " for real, im not interested in having relationship with you,
so you better stop asking me for a date"

you said "what? i'm only joking" and you smiled at me , i know from the way you smile, you're hiding your true
intentions, you try to pretend that it was nothing.

a week after that, you try to asked me the same question again. now im getting impatient...
i told you again and again "we're just friend, nothing gonna change!" you looked at me and said
"it's just a joke, ....besides i can wait"

i barely heard him and said "what? what you mean by that?"

you turn your face away and i heard your reply was "nothing!~"

"no it's not nothing, look..., try to understand..i had a bad relationship before , and i'm not ready to have
a relationship yet, so could you please stop joking around and asking me that question its annoying"

you stand up from the chair and you said " im sure it's in the past, besides people can change, i will wait for you..."

"whatever...! one more thing ... stop trying to hold my hand everytime we're going out! it's not a date!"

Posted by lavender at 2:52 AM

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