arg...my manager is on leave for three days and my boss is away...how the hell am i gonna do my work ? so busy today...my mind going crazy...and i hate handling money...but the good thing was i can do anything i want...that is if i got nothing to do though...
geez..you know what...i don't think i'm suited for my current job as a clerk...i don't know why the hell i took these job...at first it wasn't so bad but every year things got harder and harder. i'm not sure whether to be happy but obviously i'm not right now.
i feel like a ship wrecked *sigh* sinking slowly and slowly...my work mate really not cooperating with me...it's just so unfair...now sometimes my work mate asked for favor regardless if it's work or not...i do my best to do it but when it comes i'm the one who asked them..i don't think they really do it their best...whatever from now on i definitely won't do whatever they asked me to do unless of course it's about work..
Monday, December 22, 2008
when talking just not enough
its not my fault for being single up to now. don't try asking me whether i had a bf or not coz me myself don't know what and how to answer that. i'm just not really into relationship or maybe i am but don't have someone really special. i'm picky .., there these one guy i know.. age probably 30+ , a bit thin and short probably 4' , i actually don't want to be too close with him , before when i was working in c.h , he came by with his boss . his boss ask me any nice movie or dvd so as a worker there i try my best to interact with them. i smile and make a joke but
unfortunately he got carried away just like that. why? yes.. he's kinda friendly but too friendly is just plain annoying. so he came by so many times and i thought to myself hell why not let he be my friend. he seems nice and normal. the longer i know him things was beginning to be a bit different. he soon clinging near me more and more . i still remember that nite he was calling me via hp and propose me to be his gf , i told him that i just wana be friend and nothing more. telling him that he doesn't know me that well and vice versa. i'm being honest when i told him that i'm a not interested and having relationship is not in my list , for me my job is much more important and hey we seems not compatible with each other. he actually reply me with a positive reaction , saying that...someday..i probably will change my mind and will wait for me till then.. duh how dumb could he be? by that time i probably ran off with someone else.
so i thought after i told him my feelings and my true intentions of becoming just friends he would change. but nothing change much..when i hang out with him..yeah sure it's nice but i just dont want people to think that we have a thing for each other. i actually want him to treat me like one of those guys treat each others, i don't want to be treat like a lady or too nice. it's embarrasing me when i'm walking alone with him , plus he couldn't put his hand still because there's a time when he want to hold me in his hands .oh please stop that.. its eeww...
thats what couple do , he asked me when can we get married ..so i snapped and got angry with him. its not once he asked me that , and surely its not twice either, these had to stop so i take it all out on him. rejecting him honestly . i can be bitchy sometimes. and i still remember the time i actually punch him, . huh i want to punch him so many time on his face but i don't want any trouble . besides it'll be a waste of time doing it.
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unfortunately he got carried away just like that. why? yes.. he's kinda friendly but too friendly is just plain annoying. so he came by so many times and i thought to myself hell why not let he be my friend. he seems nice and normal. the longer i know him things was beginning to be a bit different. he soon clinging near me more and more . i still remember that nite he was calling me via hp and propose me to be his gf , i told him that i just wana be friend and nothing more. telling him that he doesn't know me that well and vice versa. i'm being honest when i told him that i'm a not interested and having relationship is not in my list , for me my job is much more important and hey we seems not compatible with each other. he actually reply me with a positive reaction , saying that...someday..i probably will change my mind and will wait for me till then.. duh how dumb could he be? by that time i probably ran off with someone else.
so i thought after i told him my feelings and my true intentions of becoming just friends he would change. but nothing change much..when i hang out with him..yeah sure it's nice but i just dont want people to think that we have a thing for each other. i actually want him to treat me like one of those guys treat each others, i don't want to be treat like a lady or too nice. it's embarrasing me when i'm walking alone with him , plus he couldn't put his hand still because there's a time when he want to hold me in his hands .oh please stop that.. its eeww...
thats what couple do , he asked me when can we get married ..so i snapped and got angry with him. its not once he asked me that , and surely its not twice either, these had to stop so i take it all out on him. rejecting him honestly . i can be bitchy sometimes. and i still remember the time i actually punch him, . huh i want to punch him so many time on his face but i don't want any trouble . besides it'll be a waste of time doing it.
price of favor
yes...life is so much harder when you know that you don't have anyone you could depend on. i really do hope that i can learn to trust people because from my past experienced some people are mean and do what they can just to take advantages , meaning they just think of themselves more than others. this unthoughtful act and selfishness really pissed me off sometimes , they think their life is much easier doing that when they should think the bad effect they made on other people. i mean i want to help them but please...asking me for help is a waste of time. believe me i do want them to help me from time to time but inside me i had what you called an ego. i dont want to be helped unless i really want them to. nowadays some people are dirty minded, when i asked them for help , either they're trying to ignore or asking for other thing in return..in which i despised doing. i mean if they had asked for interest, or asking me to pay double then it's okay but when they started to asked about returning the favor with sexual thing ..man.. just thinking about it makes me puke .
Friday, December 12, 2008
no!..i didn't mean to say "yes"
man i shouldn't say yes...urgh why me? why? last week these girl went to my house...i mean i was pretty much surprised...there i was panicking like the world gonna end .. geez i couldn't believe my mom let you in and making you wait for me..duh~ if you got business with my parents could you please leave me out of it..i'm totally not interested...but..*sigh* wish that i got my own car so that i wouldn't have to go home so early...huh~ wishing it so badly so that i can drive away every time i see some unwanted guest in my house..., anyway girl...i know it's you...you did gave me a missed call on my hp but hey i'm sorry i don't wanna answer you...and you did call me again with my home phone number ...eheh thank god i told my parents to tell you i was asleep..somehow i'm not really interested answering you're calls. coz i know if i answered it..you probably gonna come by or asking me out..you do all the talking and i do the nodding. nah~ ...*sigh* tmrw you're offday..my instinct says you gonna call me again...and you probably gonna be there waiting....urg the pressure...p.s: i hate it when you bring along your aunt...emmph oh yeah thanx for bringing my bag to the office the other day,
happy birthday y'all
j.d...well today going to the shop and bought chocolates just for you...not sure whether it's good but it does look like it...
anyways to taz...sorry i forgot you're birthday ...thanx for reminding me but when i think about it...it seems to me that you also kinda forgot my birthday ..guess we're even ..okay....eheh it's okay if you forgot my birthday taz coz as you can see sometimes i forgot when is my birthday too..it's not really a big a deal...cheh~ so these month-December is you're birthday right...you did asked me about your present...sorry couldn't afford to buy one but i promise to give you on February...that is if i still remember it and if you're still asking about it..*wishing you forgot about it by then* hehehe ...oh yeah happy birthday too to "nur" ...you're so kind to me ..uh~ hope you enjoyed the black forest cake that i bought for ya...it looks tasty don't you think...thanks for being a sweet friend and you did help me alot so i think you deserved the cake. i was wondering what present should i give you..but i don't know what you like...anyways hope you will stay happy always. and lastly to bro....seriously is it your birthday these month too..? *tsk tsk* sorry did't realized it till you told me...um okay for my part the good thing is i'm really happy seeing you again and you seems happy too and all and the bad thing ..well sorry no present for ya..didn't go to your party but hey happy birthday to you.
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
driving lessons from dad? = disaster
i've been trying to find a way to buy a car..but buying a car is so hard than i had expected..too many rules and regulations..now i know when one wana buy a car he/she need a valid driver licence...even if you had money to buy one...gosh ... maybe i should re-think about purchasing one. a friend of mine fatin called me in the office . she was working in other company so when she wana ask pricing on items i would be the one providing it..
.i told her about how hard it was getting car and told her i don't have driving lessons etc..then she asked me why not? and i told her i was a bit scared learning to drive...man she scold me ma~ ha2 she told me "no! there's no word for scared in my dictionary..you should learn it" then as i wana say my reasons she cut me off by saying "no! no! no such word as afraid , scared you should try first" *sigh* i know she was right...she told me to get a driving lessons ..get a valid licence then go buy a car...*thinking* maybe she is right...
so maybe i should just try learning some basic first...guess who'se gonna teach me...huh my dad...god...of all people...this is gonna be lessons from hell i tell ya...there's no way he's not gonna be strict plus it's his precious antique car we're talking here...one scratched, one bump or one error from me gonna be fatal..should i wear walkman just to prevent myself from hearing him yelling ?? huh one thing for sure i know...these gona be a long road of hell..unless i gave him money haha3 he's mood probably change a bit huh...yeah that's it...
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.i told her about how hard it was getting car and told her i don't have driving lessons etc..then she asked me why not? and i told her i was a bit scared learning to drive...man she scold me ma~ ha2 she told me "no! there's no word for scared in my dictionary..you should learn it" then as i wana say my reasons she cut me off by saying "no! no! no such word as afraid , scared you should try first" *sigh* i know she was right...she told me to get a driving lessons ..get a valid licence then go buy a car...*thinking* maybe she is right...
so maybe i should just try learning some basic first...guess who'se gonna teach me...huh my dad...god...of all people...this is gonna be lessons from hell i tell ya...there's no way he's not gonna be strict plus it's his precious antique car we're talking here...one scratched, one bump or one error from me gonna be fatal..should i wear walkman just to prevent myself from hearing him yelling ?? huh one thing for sure i know...these gona be a long road of hell..unless i gave him money haha3 he's mood probably change a bit huh...yeah that's it...
saw my cousin tjah today
i saw my cousin tjah when i was on my way to cyber cafe with a friend of mine ..oh yeah thanx for paying for me ate...will pay you back somehow hehe...but not now i'm tight on cash...next week for sure ha~ *wink wink* nyways i saw her infront of photoplus in gdg with a bunch of people wearing the same outfit...baju kurung and guys wearing baju melayu..
i don't know what's the occasions was..and maybe they had function or something..., i greet and say hai to her..and she was that time on the phone but she manage to talked to me somehow haha3...kacau daun aku ah kalau org putihnya (bother the leaves bowh nonsense ey out..) so when kan bersalam tu kan , she actually wana kissed my hand instead of me kissed her hand...considering i'm a bit young haha2...i told her "ey salah eh tebalik..." ha3 then after kissing her hand tu kan , she asked to kissed cheek...whoa i'm so uh~ nervous coz i'm not used to it plus i was taken by surpised ma~ i was at that time after smoking some cigarrete so i'm a bit embarrassed by it if she smell my breath . so when she lean in i step back ha3 hope she did't mind. i know that she would preach me for smoking and i know that she would tell her parents about it..guarranteed..too late she know it...i told her coz i was in panic ha3 slip right away from my mouth..i really wana talked to her but gotta go ..in a hurry besides it's a good chance for me to escape from her preaching ha3 ~ phew~
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i don't know what's the occasions was..and maybe they had function or something..., i greet and say hai to her..and she was that time on the phone but she manage to talked to me somehow haha3...kacau daun aku ah kalau org putihnya (bother the leaves bowh nonsense ey out..) so when kan bersalam tu kan , she actually wana kissed my hand instead of me kissed her hand...considering i'm a bit young haha2...i told her "ey salah eh tebalik..." ha3 then after kissing her hand tu kan , she asked to kissed cheek...whoa i'm so uh~ nervous coz i'm not used to it plus i was taken by surpised ma~ i was at that time after smoking some cigarrete so i'm a bit embarrassed by it if she smell my breath . so when she lean in i step back ha3 hope she did't mind. i know that she would preach me for smoking and i know that she would tell her parents about it..guarranteed..too late she know it...i told her coz i was in panic ha3 slip right away from my mouth..i really wana talked to her but gotta go ..in a hurry besides it's a good chance for me to escape from her preaching ha3 ~ phew~
if i'm the head you'll be my tail forever
you know what ..i do missed the myanmar girl. i don't wanna put her name here but i know you would remember her right..? no? how about i'm the "head" she's the "tail" hehe still remember that nick name i made. she's nice and shy but you know me i just couldn't resist not to say anything to her...so lonely when she's in classroom ..i know people in the class want to be friend with her but they shy to talk to her in english ..,
most often i always thinking about what to say to her before...i was so damn curious about her..lifestyles...country...etc..then that time we were having art exam.. she was sitting behind me..my heart just aching to talk and make a conversation..but damn, i don't know what to say...after i finished my drawing..i don;t know what to do..so gather my courage glancing at her. i took that chance to see her drawing.. she was still colouring though..uh~ she know how to draw people but she did'nt know how to mixed the colour of the skin. i kept silenced while she still colouring...after a while i just couldn't take it anymore, if she continue mixing colour blindlessly she ruin her drawing and grade . heh so i took that chance to gave her some tips adding the colour showed her how it works. i know in exam we shouldn't talk and all but who cares.
like i said, she draw people dancing in her country i supposed...*blink blink* i remember looking at it and uh said something like...
"nice drawing"
she looked at me smiling and said " thanx.."
"what is it?"
"what you mean what is it? it's people dancing traditional dance in my country"
"is it?"
"yeah"
"are you sure you're not drawing demons?"
"not demons it's people"
"why is the skin so red? are they wearing makeup? like they do in chinese opera?"
"no ..it's ugly isn't it?"
"no..its uh~yeah it's weird"
"maybe i should draw new one huh?"
"no u can't re-do it..not enuf time..."
"maybe i should erase the colour using eraser then?"
"nah you'll ruin ur drawing besides if you do that it'll make a hole on ur drawing"
*thinking so hard like her head gonna explode..ha3
at the end i gave her some tips...like adding some white colour etc2 and that's how she and i become friend...hey G.H ..do you remember how you befriended her ?
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most often i always thinking about what to say to her before...i was so damn curious about her..lifestyles...country...etc..then that time we were having art exam.. she was sitting behind me..my heart just aching to talk and make a conversation..but damn, i don't know what to say...after i finished my drawing..i don;t know what to do..so gather my courage glancing at her. i took that chance to see her drawing.. she was still colouring though..uh~ she know how to draw people but she did'nt know how to mixed the colour of the skin. i kept silenced while she still colouring...after a while i just couldn't take it anymore, if she continue mixing colour blindlessly she ruin her drawing and grade . heh so i took that chance to gave her some tips adding the colour showed her how it works. i know in exam we shouldn't talk and all but who cares.
like i said, she draw people dancing in her country i supposed...*blink blink* i remember looking at it and uh said something like...
"nice drawing"
she looked at me smiling and said " thanx.."
"what is it?"
"what you mean what is it? it's people dancing traditional dance in my country"
"is it?"
"yeah"
"are you sure you're not drawing demons?"
"not demons it's people"
"why is the skin so red? are they wearing makeup? like they do in chinese opera?"
"no ..it's ugly isn't it?"
"no..its uh~yeah it's weird"
"maybe i should draw new one huh?"
"no u can't re-do it..not enuf time..."
"maybe i should erase the colour using eraser then?"
"nah you'll ruin ur drawing besides if you do that it'll make a hole on ur drawing"
*thinking so hard like her head gonna explode..ha3
at the end i gave her some tips...like adding some white colour etc2 and that's how she and i become friend...hey G.H ..do you remember how you befriended her ?
missed you too !
hey golden heart do you still remember our friend from myanmar? i'll bet you do heh..tonite i was seraching some paper inside my drawer and i found this letter...a letter she gave me before she transferred to other school.
dear XXXXXXXX,
how is your first day at school. was it great? i finally find my class. my first day at school i was quite boring. my class is mixed with form 5 aspirasi and 4 merak. and we have only 6 boys (form 4) and about 4 boys (form 5). the rest are girls. they are quite friendly but they all are speaking in malay so i'm bored. my form teacher teaches malay. her name is C. Hjh Laipah..she speak in malay..
i just tell my form teacher that i'm gonna transfer to ST..?????. because i don't want anyone to know, did you tell about me to all the girls (last year's) i don't want you to tell them, i only tell you and XXXXXXX (it's your name golden heart) that i'm gonna transfer. but it's okay if you have tell them . i thought Kartini is gonna change and Haimizah said she is gonna change to international school. are they just like me? what ever they are doing it's not my bussiness right? and whatever i'm doing it's not their bussiness too!
at first day at school i have to see some faces that i really wanted to see again..and some faces that i never wanted to see again. but anyway i have to play my roles of my life.
when i first met you i think you didn't change. what about me? i'm getting taller than usual. you know some of the girls ask me that how come i get this class.. all the girls are from 3 Cempaka and 3 Jasmine. i think they think any students from 3 Teratai can't get this class. i don't know what do they mean???? okey whatever they think..i think i'm not coming to school tomorrow because it's so boring..
missing you!!
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dear XXXXXXXX,
how is your first day at school. was it great? i finally find my class. my first day at school i was quite boring. my class is mixed with form 5 aspirasi and 4 merak. and we have only 6 boys (form 4) and about 4 boys (form 5). the rest are girls. they are quite friendly but they all are speaking in malay so i'm bored. my form teacher teaches malay. her name is C. Hjh Laipah..she speak in malay..
i just tell my form teacher that i'm gonna transfer to ST..?????. because i don't want anyone to know, did you tell about me to all the girls (last year's) i don't want you to tell them, i only tell you and XXXXXXX (it's your name golden heart) that i'm gonna transfer. but it's okay if you have tell them . i thought Kartini is gonna change and Haimizah said she is gonna change to international school. are they just like me? what ever they are doing it's not my bussiness right? and whatever i'm doing it's not their bussiness too!
at first day at school i have to see some faces that i really wanted to see again..and some faces that i never wanted to see again. but anyway i have to play my roles of my life.
when i first met you i think you didn't change. what about me? i'm getting taller than usual. you know some of the girls ask me that how come i get this class.. all the girls are from 3 Cempaka and 3 Jasmine. i think they think any students from 3 Teratai can't get this class. i don't know what do they mean???? okey whatever they think..i think i'm not coming to school tomorrow because it's so boring..
missing you!!
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Sunday, November 23, 2008
taz the tazmanian devil
whoa...it's 2 a.m already .. i was talking with a friend of mine on the phone for the whole 2 hours it's really making my ears numb...we had a fight last week..about something stupid...i was so jealous at her coz she was always busy and often hanging out with her bf. before it was always me who come first..who hang out with her etc2. taz was slow sometimes..heh~ sometimes she even did't realized when i'm angry or probably she pretended not to realized or something. she's like a sister i don't wanna have lol...she's innocent in some ways..
known her for 5 years already...whenever she got a problem i'll be her advisor but when i had one she always gave me some pointless advised...teasing me alot...she told me that if someday i end up alone..if my parents no longer with me..no one to accompany me in the house...she would like to live with me so that i'm not lonely. geeez ..that's a nice thing to say..."what if at that time you're married already?" i asked her..then she says "um~ i don't think so but ...if that happens you wouldn't mind if i bring along my husband..wouldn't you?" *panic* "uh~i'd be happy too uh~ i guess...even if you've got gazzilion of babies ..i wouldn't mind" lol...
first time i met taz is when we were working at the same shop..as usual i was acting like a bitch..giving order to newbies .. so when she did'nt do what i told her .. i scolded her..alot..like i said she's slow sometimes and innocent too..but i didn't realized since when we become close and be friend?...i asked her "whats the first impression you've got on me?" and all she said was "a bitch..you always angry and ordering me around..i really hate you that time.." then she asked me "what about you? what's your impression on me?" *thinking* "well..you're the 2nd worse worker i met..slow and looks like mentally ill or something coz always spacing out etc2" eheh
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known her for 5 years already...whenever she got a problem i'll be her advisor but when i had one she always gave me some pointless advised...teasing me alot...she told me that if someday i end up alone..if my parents no longer with me..no one to accompany me in the house...she would like to live with me so that i'm not lonely. geeez ..that's a nice thing to say..."what if at that time you're married already?" i asked her..then she says "um~ i don't think so but ...if that happens you wouldn't mind if i bring along my husband..wouldn't you?" *panic* "uh~i'd be happy too uh~ i guess...even if you've got gazzilion of babies ..i wouldn't mind" lol...
first time i met taz is when we were working at the same shop..as usual i was acting like a bitch..giving order to newbies .. so when she did'nt do what i told her .. i scolded her..alot..like i said she's slow sometimes and innocent too..but i didn't realized since when we become close and be friend?...i asked her "whats the first impression you've got on me?" and all she said was "a bitch..you always angry and ordering me around..i really hate you that time.." then she asked me "what about you? what's your impression on me?" *thinking* "well..you're the 2nd worse worker i met..slow and looks like mentally ill or something coz always spacing out etc2" eheh
a howling? awu woof woof
tonite i ws sitting here alone..listening some loud music in the middle of the night..who cares about people complaining ...it's weekend so might as well have some fun. anyway...as i sitting here suddenly i heard something....something whistling and howling...at first i thought a dog or something...hum..?
i peeked at the window...its pitch dark out there...couldn't hear the sound anymore and it's fading away fast. there's nothing..nada..so i went back again to my desk . huh!! there it was again..the howling..people say when a dog howls there probably a ghost nearby..i'm not scared of that actually...so anyways i turned my music off and oh yeah ..now i can hear it so clearly now...gosh...no it's not a whistle nor a howling i heard..instead it was some people singing damn...their voice really uh~ um~ *thinking* i dont know what words should i use here..worse? irritating? annoying? heh~ maybe it's karaoke nite uh~ wait it should be pronounced "kera ok!" nite .. kekeke..
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i peeked at the window...its pitch dark out there...couldn't hear the sound anymore and it's fading away fast. there's nothing..nada..so i went back again to my desk . huh!! there it was again..the howling..people say when a dog howls there probably a ghost nearby..i'm not scared of that actually...so anyways i turned my music off and oh yeah ..now i can hear it so clearly now...gosh...no it's not a whistle nor a howling i heard..instead it was some people singing damn...their voice really uh~ um~ *thinking* i dont know what words should i use here..worse? irritating? annoying? heh~ maybe it's karaoke nite uh~ wait it should be pronounced "kera ok!" nite .. kekeke..
Saturday, November 22, 2008
reason why she reject you.
u did everything to attract her attention but all of them doesn't work. saying sweet, romantic things or even preparing some romantic dinner. you even use some tricks that you read in a book. you told and confessed your true feelings for her and guess what ..she says no to you. you can't think of a reason on why she reject you..
1. she doesn't like you
yes...she do like your attention but not in a romantic way. she's not interested in having a relationship with you so you might as well just move on. you do all kinds of things for her just to get her attention but when a girl just not interested in you ..you might just give up because it's just wasting time. she probably like you as a friend and can't see you as a bf.
2. she got a bf already
you should check first whether she is single or not. only idiots rush in and confessed blindly. or perhaps ask her if she is still single..for you she might look single...just because you haven't seen her with a man doesn't mean she's one...she probably seeing someone else or interested with other guy.
3.she's not ready for a relationship
she might be single but not available. she's not interested and and not ready for a relationship. you want something more from her but she's just wanna have a friendship with you. if these happen don't try to force her to fall for you..
4.she likes women
yeah..she's just not into men. she's not interested in having a relationship with men due to her other sexual preference. don't even think about trying to change her mind or saying you can change the way her thinking just by having you as a bf. bragging to her how nice and treat you nice isn't going anywhere.
5.she's still in love with her x-bf
even though he's just an x-bf doesnt mean she doesn't have some feelings for him. women usually couldn't forget their x or moreover their first lover. she might trying to work things out with you but somehow she just could't overcome her feelings just yet.
6. you're too boring
women likes men to be mysterious and fun to be with. nobody likes to have a boring relationship, which everyday doing same things or routine. similarities or doing something both of you can enjoy is important, if not then you just not meant for her.
7.work is her priority
she's focussing on her work and not ready for a relationship just yet. she's seriously trying or enjoying herself to work rather than being with you.
8.she doesn't know you that well
some guys don't spend the needed time to introduce himself to her. they just confessed in a rush without giving girls a chance to know them. no girls like to have relationship with strangers or people they barely know.
9. she doesn't see you as her future man or husband
you might be a perfect bf but probably lack of the responsibilities as a future man or husband. some women tends to thinks their future ..thinking whether or not you are perfect for the job. some women thinks it's a serious matter who they should choose to have relationship with..they need to feel secure. but if you can't provide it well move on...
10. you're too naughty and wild for her
she knows that you got these habit on girls. you just couldn't resist looking other women passing by...flirting here and there. she probably feel disgusted when you talk dirty while you feel sexy about it. don't do things like that coz some women prefer a decent conversation . she might get scared or thinks that you're just a pervert.
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1. she doesn't like you
yes...she do like your attention but not in a romantic way. she's not interested in having a relationship with you so you might as well just move on. you do all kinds of things for her just to get her attention but when a girl just not interested in you ..you might just give up because it's just wasting time. she probably like you as a friend and can't see you as a bf.
2. she got a bf already
you should check first whether she is single or not. only idiots rush in and confessed blindly. or perhaps ask her if she is still single..for you she might look single...just because you haven't seen her with a man doesn't mean she's one...she probably seeing someone else or interested with other guy.
3.she's not ready for a relationship
she might be single but not available. she's not interested and and not ready for a relationship. you want something more from her but she's just wanna have a friendship with you. if these happen don't try to force her to fall for you..
4.she likes women
yeah..she's just not into men. she's not interested in having a relationship with men due to her other sexual preference. don't even think about trying to change her mind or saying you can change the way her thinking just by having you as a bf. bragging to her how nice and treat you nice isn't going anywhere.
5.she's still in love with her x-bf
even though he's just an x-bf doesnt mean she doesn't have some feelings for him. women usually couldn't forget their x or moreover their first lover. she might trying to work things out with you but somehow she just could't overcome her feelings just yet.
6. you're too boring
women likes men to be mysterious and fun to be with. nobody likes to have a boring relationship, which everyday doing same things or routine. similarities or doing something both of you can enjoy is important, if not then you just not meant for her.
7.work is her priority
she's focussing on her work and not ready for a relationship just yet. she's seriously trying or enjoying herself to work rather than being with you.
8.she doesn't know you that well
some guys don't spend the needed time to introduce himself to her. they just confessed in a rush without giving girls a chance to know them. no girls like to have relationship with strangers or people they barely know.
9. she doesn't see you as her future man or husband
you might be a perfect bf but probably lack of the responsibilities as a future man or husband. some women tends to thinks their future ..thinking whether or not you are perfect for the job. some women thinks it's a serious matter who they should choose to have relationship with..they need to feel secure. but if you can't provide it well move on...
10. you're too naughty and wild for her
she knows that you got these habit on girls. you just couldn't resist looking other women passing by...flirting here and there. she probably feel disgusted when you talk dirty while you feel sexy about it. don't do things like that coz some women prefer a decent conversation . she might get scared or thinks that you're just a pervert.
when the road taken over by the apes..
before me and my fren taz were walking towards the mall in gdg area...we decided to hang out at the mall and see some stuff that we wanna buy...on our way across the mall..we were interrupted by a bunch of guys inside their car passing through the road. we stopped and actually was shocked by their manners. they were inside their wrecked car , we can see that there are around 5 guys. as we stopped and just stands
there at the side of the road the guys shout at us acting like a bunch of apes , trying to flirt and make a noise. taz was a bit scared by it...and i was furious with how they act. it's just uncivilized so i gave them the hand sign saying "FUCK YOU!!" which make the matter worse anyways..ha3 they started to reversed and saying something to us ..which i couldn't remember what or i couldn't understand what the hell they were sayin..i remember they were saying stuff like "jual mahal jua", helo~ first of all do we looked like we're selling something meh? besides do all the girls looked that cheap kh? really dude flirting like that doesn't get you anywhere, so they stopped at the middle of the road .. looking pissed at us .. duh~ like i care..anyways guys like these is just a sore eyes for me...it really wanna make me take some metal rod and slam it on their head and manhood. if they wana flirt .. do it with a proper manner ..not acting like apes and cave men. it's just soo damn uncivilized like going back in the old age. for certain it's against the rules to drive and act your way like that on the road. thank god the road is not buzy with others cars, if they continue doing this they probably gonna bump other cars behind. i don't think i see a bunch of girls flirting like that to guys though..
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there at the side of the road the guys shout at us acting like a bunch of apes , trying to flirt and make a noise. taz was a bit scared by it...and i was furious with how they act. it's just uncivilized so i gave them the hand sign saying "FUCK YOU!!" which make the matter worse anyways..ha3 they started to reversed and saying something to us ..which i couldn't remember what or i couldn't understand what the hell they were sayin..i remember they were saying stuff like "jual mahal jua", helo~ first of all do we looked like we're selling something meh? besides do all the girls looked that cheap kh? really dude flirting like that doesn't get you anywhere, so they stopped at the middle of the road .. looking pissed at us .. duh~ like i care..anyways guys like these is just a sore eyes for me...it really wanna make me take some metal rod and slam it on their head and manhood. if they wana flirt .. do it with a proper manner ..not acting like apes and cave men. it's just soo damn uncivilized like going back in the old age. for certain it's against the rules to drive and act your way like that on the road. thank god the road is not buzy with others cars, if they continue doing this they probably gonna bump other cars behind. i don't think i see a bunch of girls flirting like that to guys though..
Thursday, November 20, 2008
i hate people sometimes...heck i really myself for it..
i know that no one is perfect but people can do better if they try ..right..but some people so comfortable with themself ..they don't wanna change.
why is it when i try to be friendly...guys seems to missunderstood it as being flirty..whats wrong with that? guys that i know try to do something overboard..if you wana be friend then act like a fucking damn friend..don't talk dirty okay! if you gonna get laid then you should find yourself a gf..and please when i say get yourself gf that doesnt mean you should ask me to be one..hell it's not my problem if you're horny ..dog~ ..wait i shouldn't compare you to dog coz i know dog have a better manner that you do..plus i think even the ugliest dog can be too damn cute than you.
people shouldn't force other people to love...that is their own feelings. who the fuck says "i wana be frens with you" and act like a damn horny demon? friend should be someone you should treasure not someone who you can easily get a FUCK ... if you wana be friend with someone don't try to manipulate them ..is it so hard to be sincere nowadays...
when a friend needed help dont ask them like "yea i can do that but u got to do something for me..on teh bed" man how cheap is that..anyways don't confessed your fucking feelings to people who are not interested in you..instead find out first whether he/she is really intersted in you. who the hell wana date to someone they don't really know..strangers..a bitch,a whore maybe but not some people. before you can manage to ask or even a date .. you should know if it's only one sided. put your BRAIN in your head not put it in your FUCKING manhood.
don't beg when you should know by now she is not interested in you..it can annoyed her when she just treat you like a friend. if you still continue doing these then you shouldn't have a girl for a friend ..not even one..sooner or later she probably get tired of you a leave you with your fucking world.
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why is it when i try to be friendly...guys seems to missunderstood it as being flirty..whats wrong with that? guys that i know try to do something overboard..if you wana be friend then act like a fucking damn friend..don't talk dirty okay! if you gonna get laid then you should find yourself a gf..and please when i say get yourself gf that doesnt mean you should ask me to be one..hell it's not my problem if you're horny ..dog~ ..wait i shouldn't compare you to dog coz i know dog have a better manner that you do..plus i think even the ugliest dog can be too damn cute than you.
people shouldn't force other people to love...that is their own feelings. who the fuck says "i wana be frens with you" and act like a damn horny demon? friend should be someone you should treasure not someone who you can easily get a FUCK ... if you wana be friend with someone don't try to manipulate them ..is it so hard to be sincere nowadays...
when a friend needed help dont ask them like "yea i can do that but u got to do something for me..on teh bed" man how cheap is that..anyways don't confessed your fucking feelings to people who are not interested in you..instead find out first whether he/she is really intersted in you. who the hell wana date to someone they don't really know..strangers..a bitch,a whore maybe but not some people. before you can manage to ask or even a date .. you should know if it's only one sided. put your BRAIN in your head not put it in your FUCKING manhood.
don't beg when you should know by now she is not interested in you..it can annoyed her when she just treat you like a friend. if you still continue doing these then you shouldn't have a girl for a friend ..not even one..sooner or later she probably get tired of you a leave you with your fucking world.
Sunday, November 16, 2008
you're my angel..you're my devil
"what is it with her?" i asked that question over and over again...in my head...sooner or later people will think im going nuts...what makes her so special...what makes her precious?...no one ever touch my heart like you did. so fucked up...and don't look at me with that puppy eyes..it's making me weak inside.
i couldn't believed i fall for you...when i knew i shouldn't have...when i knew it wouldn't work out...at first i don't know these feeling i had...i dont want to understand it...i don't want to feel it..certainly i don't need it from you
why is it everytime i saw your face ..i feel like want to hurt you...want to make you hate me...want to scold you till you cry...by doing that i feel good, i feel satisfied..but somehow part of me feel guilty...feel sadness
she is my angel, she got that innocent side of her...kind and sweet. i don't know why exactly you wanna get close to a messed up person like me...why are you keep on trying when i said you shouldn't bother me. no..you shouldn't ask your friend about me because it's just useless. it's true what my cousin said...if you hate a person ..sooner or later you would fall for them..the stronger the hate means the stronger the love...heh i did'nt believed it at first but now i know ..now i know..
i never shed a tears for a guy...but you...you're different. i cried for you when i missed you, i cried for you when i feel hurt...i was so damn worried when i thought that i could lose you.
the day that i found out about it, i did'nt know what to do..., you are the first person i fall for, in my heart i really wanted you to loved me back but i guess it difficult for you and things got really complicated. i back away giving you the space you needed...which is hard for me to do.
wherever you are right now..i hope you remember me..., even if you don't it doesnt really matter anymore. because life just goes on with or without you .
im not sure if i ever forgive you, should i? shouldn't i? but i know one thing is true..you're the best thing ever happened to me.*smile*
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i couldn't believed i fall for you...when i knew i shouldn't have...when i knew it wouldn't work out...at first i don't know these feeling i had...i dont want to understand it...i don't want to feel it..certainly i don't need it from you
why is it everytime i saw your face ..i feel like want to hurt you...want to make you hate me...want to scold you till you cry...by doing that i feel good, i feel satisfied..but somehow part of me feel guilty...feel sadness
she is my angel, she got that innocent side of her...kind and sweet. i don't know why exactly you wanna get close to a messed up person like me...why are you keep on trying when i said you shouldn't bother me. no..you shouldn't ask your friend about me because it's just useless. it's true what my cousin said...if you hate a person ..sooner or later you would fall for them..the stronger the hate means the stronger the love...heh i did'nt believed it at first but now i know ..now i know..
i never shed a tears for a guy...but you...you're different. i cried for you when i missed you, i cried for you when i feel hurt...i was so damn worried when i thought that i could lose you.
the day that i found out about it, i did'nt know what to do..., you are the first person i fall for, in my heart i really wanted you to loved me back but i guess it difficult for you and things got really complicated. i back away giving you the space you needed...which is hard for me to do.
wherever you are right now..i hope you remember me..., even if you don't it doesnt really matter anymore. because life just goes on with or without you .
im not sure if i ever forgive you, should i? shouldn't i? but i know one thing is true..you're the best thing ever happened to me.*smile*
Friday, November 14, 2008
reason why you should reject him on first date
1.he always glancing and staring your boobs and ass. as if he's acting like a horny hungry dog, drooling all over the place and staring at your two buns.
2. he talks about his vacation trip to you most of the time. from the way he talks it show that he travels a lot from all over the place..one of his favourite stop is thailand and he even confessed to you that he got some difficulties on his blood test. you should think twice about it who knows he's infected with h.i.v positive. don't reserve yourself with one way ticket to hell..!
3. he's too short for you..i mean it..he's way too short. it won't be an issue for you if height doesn't matter...but for some people they would feel awkward and uncomfortable with it. as if you're the tallest building around like petronas twin tower and he's just one of those building below level..or like you are up there breathing a fresh air while he's down there breathing your armpit smelly odour..wha3
4. you noticed that he keep on looking and staring pretty , sweet and sexy women. his eyeballs ready to bulge from its socket when he see them.
5. "beware of the hands" .. he's hands keep on crawling and creeping from here and there, trying to hold your hands and your waist but you only knows him just for half an hour. it's like he got hands with a life of it's own.
6. he confessed to you that he don't want to have a date with you, but despite of that he still date you anyway because of pity..
7. when you order a coke to drink and he order a carlsberg.
8. he talks about his family who owned a business. he told you that his father owned a factory and how rich his grandfather was...but when the dinner bills arrived he didn't bother to pay for you.
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2. he talks about his vacation trip to you most of the time. from the way he talks it show that he travels a lot from all over the place..one of his favourite stop is thailand and he even confessed to you that he got some difficulties on his blood test. you should think twice about it who knows he's infected with h.i.v positive. don't reserve yourself with one way ticket to hell..!
3. he's too short for you..i mean it..he's way too short. it won't be an issue for you if height doesn't matter...but for some people they would feel awkward and uncomfortable with it. as if you're the tallest building around like petronas twin tower and he's just one of those building below level..or like you are up there breathing a fresh air while he's down there breathing your armpit smelly odour..wha3
4. you noticed that he keep on looking and staring pretty , sweet and sexy women. his eyeballs ready to bulge from its socket when he see them.
5. "beware of the hands" .. he's hands keep on crawling and creeping from here and there, trying to hold your hands and your waist but you only knows him just for half an hour. it's like he got hands with a life of it's own.
6. he confessed to you that he don't want to have a date with you, but despite of that he still date you anyway because of pity..
7. when you order a coke to drink and he order a carlsberg.
8. he talks about his family who owned a business. he told you that his father owned a factory and how rich his grandfather was...but when the dinner bills arrived he didn't bother to pay for you.
Monday, November 3, 2008
new worker dilemma...
oh my god~ look! it's CHUCKY !!!~,....wait no..it's a ghost...no that's not it either...a zombie maybe..oh wait lol it's just a new worker..*PHEW~~!*
as the one who in charge of the shop, i was acting like a bitch to new workers.., teaching them is not hard but making them understand is. no matter how many explaination you gave .. it's useless to people who didn't want to listened or just people who didn't want to do their work
seriously..., feels like talking to one of those dolls who just stares at you, no sound..not even a word..they just nodding their empty head up..and down...left..to right...!! is saying " sorry can you explain to me again on how these things work?" hard to say?..i guess they're the kind of dolls with a lips made up of wood, can't even move or smile..thank god that they didn't turn into those creepy CHUCKY dolls.., lol...
some of the new worker i teach also act uh~ how to put it..? "the living dead" no souls..just movement. it's like teaching a zombie , preaching them on what's good and bad thing to do.., like for example i did told them not to just staring costumer and drooling. eheh..coz some of the worker actually drooling whenever they see a hot gut ops...guys lol...even when they're is no costumer in the shop, i can see slight movement from them.
or a new worker who just standing and standing and standing..~ what? when i say just standing i really mean it. they just stands like a guard eyeing people and costumer like they never see a human before. its like having a gargoyle or statue of liberty in the shop. doom i tell ya! doom~
of all the categories above ...guess which i am when i was a new worker before...eheh..none of the above i guess. i think i imagine myself as..uh~ lemme see..have you ever seen "lord of the ring before" now..remember the creature in the movie, i couldn't remember much about it either but im like that creature who is very sneaky, desiring the power of the ring..in these case im desiring the higher salary ma..lol...eheh " my precious~ !!!!"
p.s: the character above is fiction..if someone i know bothered by these ..it's not really my intention to be a super bitch..lol.. ehem!! after all you guys are my precious..precious...zombie...opps...workers. and no zombies...ops i did it again~ workers were harm in the making of this post..*crossing finger*
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as the one who in charge of the shop, i was acting like a bitch to new workers.., teaching them is not hard but making them understand is. no matter how many explaination you gave .. it's useless to people who didn't want to listened or just people who didn't want to do their work
seriously..., feels like talking to one of those dolls who just stares at you, no sound..not even a word..they just nodding their empty head up..and down...left..to right...!! is saying " sorry can you explain to me again on how these things work?" hard to say?..i guess they're the kind of dolls with a lips made up of wood, can't even move or smile..thank god that they didn't turn into those creepy CHUCKY dolls.., lol...
some of the new worker i teach also act uh~ how to put it..? "the living dead" no souls..just movement. it's like teaching a zombie , preaching them on what's good and bad thing to do.., like for example i did told them not to just staring costumer and drooling. eheh..coz some of the worker actually drooling whenever they see a hot gut ops...guys lol...even when they're is no costumer in the shop, i can see slight movement from them.
or a new worker who just standing and standing and standing..~ what? when i say just standing i really mean it. they just stands like a guard eyeing people and costumer like they never see a human before. its like having a gargoyle or statue of liberty in the shop. doom i tell ya! doom~
of all the categories above ...guess which i am when i was a new worker before...eheh..none of the above i guess. i think i imagine myself as..uh~ lemme see..have you ever seen "lord of the ring before" now..remember the creature in the movie, i couldn't remember much about it either but im like that creature who is very sneaky, desiring the power of the ring..in these case im desiring the higher salary ma..lol...eheh " my precious~ !!!!"
p.s: the character above is fiction..if someone i know bothered by these ..it's not really my intention to be a super bitch..lol.. ehem!! after all you guys are my precious..precious...zombie...opps...workers. and no zombies...ops i did it again~ workers were harm in the making of this post..*crossing finger*
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
my school day's - danny and my chatroom friend joan
i had these friend of mine..i knew her from chatroom.., i considered her as a friend but not as close as bestfriend. she's chinese and her name was joan. she's the same age as mine which is 17 at that time. she's studying from a different school and i never meet her face to face. i told danny about her and he seems interested to meet her , i'm not the person who can get jealous so easily, i don't see danny and me as an item
even though we kissed alot. so i told joan all about danny. that night joan had a party in her house..she invite me and danny to come and have fun. since i didn't want to go..danny went by himself. i told him to behave, and spare me a detail.
that morning i talked to danny about the party. he said it was okay.
me: "cmon i told you to spare me a detail so spill it out"
danny: "really ..the party was just okay~"
me: "okay..so how is she look like? is she pretty.. ?"
danny: "uh~ not really.."
me: "u know what?"
danny: "what?"
me: "she called me last nite after you went home"
danny: "okay~ and what did she say to you?"
me: "eheh she told me about the kiss.."
danny: "oh yeah i did kissed her lastnite.."
me: "yea ..so hows the kiss?"
danny: "okay ..i guess.."
me: " just okay..huh? anyway she told me that she had a crush on you..seems to me that you had an admirer"
danny: "what..really? she told you that?"
me: "yeah..she did..cmon tell me is she pretty..she asked me if you're available eheh i think she wanna be your gf..so what's you're answer?"
danny: "uh~ just say i'm unavailable..i've got someone..anything.."
me: "how come?"
danny; "to tell you the truth .. she's not my taste..she's a bit uh~"
me: "a bit..?"
danny: "chubby..~"
me: "cmon danny chubby is cute~ like teddy bear eheh"
danny: : "whatever .. i just.. really she's not my taste'
me: "ic..so..between me and her who would you prefer to choose?"
danny: "you~"
me: " and why? im also a bit chubby for you're taste"
danny: "but you're sexier than her.."
me: "you're such an asshole sometimes but i'll take that as a compliment.."
danny: "do me a favour.. when she calls you just tell her im with someone ..okay?"
me: "no..no these is your mess so you tell her yourself"
to be honest i am a bit jealous but somehow it's not really a big deal for me. he can see and kiss anyone he likes. it doesn't bother me much. not sure whether we are an item or we aren't so i just flow with it. it's not like we're seriously in love or anything.
me, tina and some of the classmate went to the library . no not to read a books, we just sat there and pretend to read a book. ehe it's so comfortable in the library..got airconditioner thats why most of the time i like to hang out in the library. so there i am talking and joking around when suddenly i got a msg from joan "danny talked to me the other day..btw i play my game..and you play you're game!" ..i really didn't understand what she meant by that..is she angry ? is she jealous? what game?
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even though we kissed alot. so i told joan all about danny. that night joan had a party in her house..she invite me and danny to come and have fun. since i didn't want to go..danny went by himself. i told him to behave, and spare me a detail.
that morning i talked to danny about the party. he said it was okay.
me: "cmon i told you to spare me a detail so spill it out"
danny: "really ..the party was just okay~"
me: "okay..so how is she look like? is she pretty.. ?"
danny: "uh~ not really.."
me: "u know what?"
danny: "what?"
me: "she called me last nite after you went home"
danny: "okay~ and what did she say to you?"
me: "eheh she told me about the kiss.."
danny: "oh yeah i did kissed her lastnite.."
me: "yea ..so hows the kiss?"
danny: "okay ..i guess.."
me: " just okay..huh? anyway she told me that she had a crush on you..seems to me that you had an admirer"
danny: "what..really? she told you that?"
me: "yeah..she did..cmon tell me is she pretty..she asked me if you're available eheh i think she wanna be your gf..so what's you're answer?"
danny: "uh~ just say i'm unavailable..i've got someone..anything.."
me: "how come?"
danny; "to tell you the truth .. she's not my taste..she's a bit uh~"
me: "a bit..?"
danny: "chubby..~"
me: "cmon danny chubby is cute~ like teddy bear eheh"
danny: : "whatever .. i just.. really she's not my taste'
me: "ic..so..between me and her who would you prefer to choose?"
danny: "you~"
me: " and why? im also a bit chubby for you're taste"
danny: "but you're sexier than her.."
me: "you're such an asshole sometimes but i'll take that as a compliment.."
danny: "do me a favour.. when she calls you just tell her im with someone ..okay?"
me: "no..no these is your mess so you tell her yourself"
to be honest i am a bit jealous but somehow it's not really a big deal for me. he can see and kiss anyone he likes. it doesn't bother me much. not sure whether we are an item or we aren't so i just flow with it. it's not like we're seriously in love or anything.
me, tina and some of the classmate went to the library . no not to read a books, we just sat there and pretend to read a book. ehe it's so comfortable in the library..got airconditioner thats why most of the time i like to hang out in the library. so there i am talking and joking around when suddenly i got a msg from joan "danny talked to me the other day..btw i play my game..and you play you're game!" ..i really didn't understand what she meant by that..is she angry ? is she jealous? what game?
my school day's - tina and danny
actually tina have an extra class today for maths..that's in period 6..while me , i have and extra class for science period 7..., i did told her that if she don't want to attend the extra class she might as well absent and stay at home.., bad news for me..she went to school anyway, it's not that
i don't like her to go to school..i'ts just that i really wanna talk to danny today..it's hard when talking to danny when tina is around. i know that she hate him..she really hate his guts.., everytime when me and tina went to the library ..danny would go towards me and sat near me. which making me quite uncomfortable.., even if danny try to make a conversation with her , she just stay quite. i just hope that danny wont sit near me whenever tina is around.
i admit i do have some feelings for danny, so i gather my courage and confessed my love to him. i'm not sure what exactly his answer was but he did try to be closer to me. joking around and talking on the phone.
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i don't like her to go to school..i'ts just that i really wanna talk to danny today..it's hard when talking to danny when tina is around. i know that she hate him..she really hate his guts.., everytime when me and tina went to the library ..danny would go towards me and sat near me. which making me quite uncomfortable.., even if danny try to make a conversation with her , she just stay quite. i just hope that danny wont sit near me whenever tina is around.
i admit i do have some feelings for danny, so i gather my courage and confessed my love to him. i'm not sure what exactly his answer was but he did try to be closer to me. joking around and talking on the phone.
no way im gonna cheat exam ..ever again!
tina called me about the examination, we promised to meet tommorrow at school to see mrs. christine our school teacher.
me: "why bother? don't you think it's too late already too start studying now?"
tina: "i know~ but it doesn't hurt to try besides i've got a few question that i don't understand.."
me: "heh~ it's a waste of time and you know it.., why don't you just cheat.."
tina: "cheating is for a looser..."
me: "ah~that's hurt..."
tina: "didn't you remember last year..you and annie were caught cheating during the exam.."
me: "what about it?"
tina: "duh~ thank god the principal just gave you a detention..and..you should be glad he didn't drop you from the examination.."
me: "believe me there's no way i'm gonna cheat these year..i learn my lesson"
tina: "really? how come?"
me: "when me and annie in a detention room .. he lectured us for the whole 2 hours ..non-stop..i felt like i was dying...dying from boredom..it's like he's trying to kill me slowly with his speech and lecture"
tina: "eheh it couldn't be that bad.."
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me: "why bother? don't you think it's too late already too start studying now?"
tina: "i know~ but it doesn't hurt to try besides i've got a few question that i don't understand.."
me: "heh~ it's a waste of time and you know it.., why don't you just cheat.."
tina: "cheating is for a looser..."
me: "ah~that's hurt..."
tina: "didn't you remember last year..you and annie were caught cheating during the exam.."
me: "what about it?"
tina: "duh~ thank god the principal just gave you a detention..and..you should be glad he didn't drop you from the examination.."
me: "believe me there's no way i'm gonna cheat these year..i learn my lesson"
tina: "really? how come?"
me: "when me and annie in a detention room .. he lectured us for the whole 2 hours ..non-stop..i felt like i was dying...dying from boredom..it's like he's trying to kill me slowly with his speech and lecture"
tina: "eheh it couldn't be that bad.."
Friday, October 17, 2008
love
love is something that can make you happy and can be something that frustrate you.
if you love someone, you will always thinking about him/her, always wondering what he/she do at this hour.
why would you say goodbye when things is not going your way? wouldn't it be better if you just try..what kind of love that gives up so easily? backing off like a coward and without any effort is not a real love.
why would you say goodbye and break-up if you know you couldn't forget him/her?
love is something that turns bitter into sweet, dust into gold, poison into cure, suffering into pleasure,
you dont force someone to love. because love is something that comes from heart.
a person who says "i love you" easily is someone who dont know how to appreciate love . just like a word without meaning.
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if you love someone, you will always thinking about him/her, always wondering what he/she do at this hour.
why would you say goodbye when things is not going your way? wouldn't it be better if you just try..what kind of love that gives up so easily? backing off like a coward and without any effort is not a real love.
why would you say goodbye and break-up if you know you couldn't forget him/her?
love is something that turns bitter into sweet, dust into gold, poison into cure, suffering into pleasure,
you dont force someone to love. because love is something that comes from heart.
a person who says "i love you" easily is someone who dont know how to appreciate love . just like a word without meaning.
girls dont like in a guy
guys who is weak . thin and doesnt do workout.
not athletic and dont know anything about sports.
guys who gave up easily or just gave up before he even start.
guys who is lazy to find a job/work
dont have a car.
guys who'se not interested in music.
guys who dont know how to make a joke and dont have any sense of humour.
guys who dont know anything about computer and any modern tech.
guys who always enjoy going to the club every night.
guys who is not romantic.
guys who always giving an excuse.
what girls like in a guy
girls likes a guy who got a nice body. always workout in s gym
athletic and knows sport. football, basketball, etc
smart and intelligent.
guys who got a job/work.
guys who got a car.
guys who knows how to make a joke and conversation.
guys who knows how to operate computer.
guys who knows how to respect other people.
guys who is confident.
guys who knows how to have fun.
guys who knows how to manage he's financial.
Monday, October 13, 2008
seeing her crying..is like seeing a "TITANIC" sinking..lol
today i met my friend at CH shop, i was looking forward to meet her because it really makes me happy whenever i see her. she always talking non-stop..some people probably would say she's annoying for that but not for me, infact i like people who talks alot. so most often when i went to her shop she would automatically went up toward me but somehow today was different..um when i went to see her , she was sitting down at the counter looking at her hp, she hasnt noticed me yet but when i looked closely at her, i saw tears ran down her cheek..thats when i know that something was wrong.
i was surprised at first, when i saw she was crying...her eyes were swollen red. so i asked her why is she crying. she said she was having a fight with her bf..lol..and there i was thinking that something really bad happened.
there i was trying to make her feel better , i really dont know what to do..what to say.., plus my other friend mitchelle really not helping me with this. she was playing some sentimental song at the background .. what is she trying to do?
after a while my friend qilah stopped crying..*phew*~
me: "so are you okay now?"
Q: "yeah, im okay~"
me: "good..."
Q: "yesterday you said want t buy necklace at the mall.."
me: "yeah..but i change my mind"
Q: "why?"
me: "dude..i dont want to go to the mall with a crying girl next to me..people might think that im the one who bullied you duh~"
Q: "all that crying makes me hungry..can you go with me to buy food..i really dont wanna go alone"
me: "whoa~ thats um..weird, you still have appetite huh?"
Q: "i'm hungry so cmon"
we went to the restaurant and we were looking at the menu. it's not really crowded but still there were at least ten people inside . so we sat and took some order and waiting for the food to arrive.
Q: "you know..i really dont know what to do if he breakup with me"
me: "oh cmon just find another guy..you can get any guys you want.."
Q: "but..i really love him..he's nice and kind to me"
me: "tell me whats the reason he broke-up with you?"
Q: "well he said to me that last nite i acted like a bitch"
me: "how come he said that..did you really acted like that last nite?"
Q: "no.. i dont think so...,all i did was looking inside his wallet"
me: "are you serious? he broke-up with you because of that? thats stupid"
Q: "maybe he's right i'm the one to be blamed, i should ask him first.."
me: "cmon it's not like you're having an affair"
Q: "i really want him back"
*oh no!..she started to cry again...what should i do? ..
me: "u know .. i never could understand why some girl crying for a guy.."
Q: "well i just couldn't help it"
*oh man...people are looking at us...maybe i should just hide under the table and pretend that i dropped something ..
Q: "oh god~ wish that i could stop crying..people are staring at me..., uh hey.. what are u doing down there?!! "
me: "oh nothing...*smile* i think i dropped something"
Q: "what is it? let me help you find it "
me: "my face.. i think i dropped my face.."
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i was surprised at first, when i saw she was crying...her eyes were swollen red. so i asked her why is she crying. she said she was having a fight with her bf..lol..and there i was thinking that something really bad happened.
there i was trying to make her feel better , i really dont know what to do..what to say.., plus my other friend mitchelle really not helping me with this. she was playing some sentimental song at the background .. what is she trying to do?
after a while my friend qilah stopped crying..*phew*~
me: "so are you okay now?"
Q: "yeah, im okay~"
me: "good..."
Q: "yesterday you said want t buy necklace at the mall.."
me: "yeah..but i change my mind"
Q: "why?"
me: "dude..i dont want to go to the mall with a crying girl next to me..people might think that im the one who bullied you duh~"
Q: "all that crying makes me hungry..can you go with me to buy food..i really dont wanna go alone"
me: "whoa~ thats um..weird, you still have appetite huh?"
Q: "i'm hungry so cmon"
we went to the restaurant and we were looking at the menu. it's not really crowded but still there were at least ten people inside . so we sat and took some order and waiting for the food to arrive.
Q: "you know..i really dont know what to do if he breakup with me"
me: "oh cmon just find another guy..you can get any guys you want.."
Q: "but..i really love him..he's nice and kind to me"
me: "tell me whats the reason he broke-up with you?"
Q: "well he said to me that last nite i acted like a bitch"
me: "how come he said that..did you really acted like that last nite?"
Q: "no.. i dont think so...,all i did was looking inside his wallet"
me: "are you serious? he broke-up with you because of that? thats stupid"
Q: "maybe he's right i'm the one to be blamed, i should ask him first.."
me: "cmon it's not like you're having an affair"
Q: "i really want him back"
*oh no!..she started to cry again...what should i do? ..
me: "u know .. i never could understand why some girl crying for a guy.."
Q: "well i just couldn't help it"
*oh man...people are looking at us...maybe i should just hide under the table and pretend that i dropped something ..
Q: "oh god~ wish that i could stop crying..people are staring at me..., uh hey.. what are u doing down there?!! "
me: "oh nothing...*smile* i think i dropped something"
Q: "what is it? let me help you find it "
me: "my face.. i think i dropped my face.."
things a guy should know about women
dont interrupted a women when she talk, instead just listen to what they say, try showing her that you're interested.
when you need them to do something dont say it like you're ordering like "open the door", "make me a coffee" instead why not say "can you please open the door for me", "can you please make me a coffee" ,
dont tell an x-rated joke or a dirty joke because some women found that its annoying. you dont want to scare them away .
no women likes a guy who'se temper is like a volcano, saying bad thing and criticize people.
no women likes a control freak. yes..you can control them but no..when you try to control every single thing that she does. every people need their own space and by taking away their space you might suffocated them.
women likes a guy to show their emotion. nobody likes to go out and date a robot.
no women likes a poor hygenic guys..for god sake..dont pick you're nose infront of us..,
women dont like when a guy tells them how fat she looks because some women is sensitive with their body weight.
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
no such thing as perfect happy family..
since i was a child , i was given love and attention from my mom. i am close to my mom than my dad ever was. my mom never got angry with me or even laid a hand on me even though i made a mistake. all she do was giving me advice. probably she was worried that im gonna ranaway or something..,
it's different from my father case, whenever i made a mistake he would get angry. he rarely laid a hand on me but there's a time he would just use his belt just for making a point not to disobey him. it was like living in a school where my father is the principal and my mom is his secretery..and me, i'm just a student who need to be dicipline. everything had to be his way . his rules,
my father dont really like a kids. for him a kid is hard to control, and having to grow up with that kind of father is not easy..he's very hot tempered, there's time when he got angry with my mom, when mom coming home late, if she's talking too long on the phone or did't do housework properly ..he would got angry. sometimes to the point that he would slap her infront of me, i just can't stand it when he starts yelling, saying things that he should't infront of me. when he's in a bad mood, he starts yelling, crashing things and at that time i was so scared of him..i couldn't do anything when i saw my mom crying because of him. i dont know what to do before...
now..its all different..i'm not a small child anymore and surely not a crying baby like i used to be. i'm taller and bigger than him, hopefully stronger too..., before i kept thinking paying back what my father did to me..., what he did to my mom..,somehow he just change a bit..i dont know when he started to change but it's good thing he did coz i keep reminding myself that if he ever lay a hand again to my mom than these time i wont cry and just watch him do whatever he want..these time i will protect her even if its mean doing it the hard way...,
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it's different from my father case, whenever i made a mistake he would get angry. he rarely laid a hand on me but there's a time he would just use his belt just for making a point not to disobey him. it was like living in a school where my father is the principal and my mom is his secretery..and me, i'm just a student who need to be dicipline. everything had to be his way . his rules,
my father dont really like a kids. for him a kid is hard to control, and having to grow up with that kind of father is not easy..he's very hot tempered, there's time when he got angry with my mom, when mom coming home late, if she's talking too long on the phone or did't do housework properly ..he would got angry. sometimes to the point that he would slap her infront of me, i just can't stand it when he starts yelling, saying things that he should't infront of me. when he's in a bad mood, he starts yelling, crashing things and at that time i was so scared of him..i couldn't do anything when i saw my mom crying because of him. i dont know what to do before...
now..its all different..i'm not a small child anymore and surely not a crying baby like i used to be. i'm taller and bigger than him, hopefully stronger too..., before i kept thinking paying back what my father did to me..., what he did to my mom..,somehow he just change a bit..i dont know when he started to change but it's good thing he did coz i keep reminding myself that if he ever lay a hand again to my mom than these time i wont cry and just watch him do whatever he want..these time i will protect her even if its mean doing it the hard way...,
Monday, October 6, 2008
being single child is it good or bad?
i'm shy when i was in primary school but i'm friendly.. i joke and make people laugh alot so making friends is not a problem for me. some of my friends told me that im so lucky being a single child, and some of them teased me, calling me "spoilt child", i am what you can call a teacher's pet coz most often i do whatever my teacher ask me to do. paying attention and having good grades just to impress them. i wanted to impress my parents but i dont think they care much about my grade. whether im good or bad it doesnt matter. no brother or sister to teach me at home,
i can't really ask my parents to teach me my schoolwork so i had to study myself, solving problem by myself because both of my parents are not really educated, and im not sure if they're really care whether im doing well at school because whenever i showed them my report card they dont seem to care, just handed it to them and get them to signed it, thats all to it, no praise or no complain, i can get what i wanted as long as it's not expensive coz i know they don't have the money to buy expensive things.
both my parents really care with whom i befriend with, whom im going out with, they usually wont let me go out if they feel that my friends is not good for me. especially when it comes to guys, whenever i befriended a guy they would question me alot. everytime when i talked to guys my dad would barged in and gave them a menacing look, my relatives often asked me if i had a boyfriend or if i ever get married ,now how am i supposed to do that when i had two security guard keep eyeing me (mom& dad) :P,
i am honest to both my parents but there's a time i lied to them as well, there's a time when i told my parents that i got an extra school but actually i was meeting a guy, or just hanging around my friends.
i smoke , i drink behind their backs, i escaped from school . i dont know why i did that probably because i wanted them to know that i need some space. i need some freedom.
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i can't really ask my parents to teach me my schoolwork so i had to study myself, solving problem by myself because both of my parents are not really educated, and im not sure if they're really care whether im doing well at school because whenever i showed them my report card they dont seem to care, just handed it to them and get them to signed it, thats all to it, no praise or no complain, i can get what i wanted as long as it's not expensive coz i know they don't have the money to buy expensive things.
both my parents really care with whom i befriend with, whom im going out with, they usually wont let me go out if they feel that my friends is not good for me. especially when it comes to guys, whenever i befriended a guy they would question me alot. everytime when i talked to guys my dad would barged in and gave them a menacing look, my relatives often asked me if i had a boyfriend or if i ever get married ,now how am i supposed to do that when i had two security guard keep eyeing me (mom& dad) :P,
i am honest to both my parents but there's a time i lied to them as well, there's a time when i told my parents that i got an extra school but actually i was meeting a guy, or just hanging around my friends.
i smoke , i drink behind their backs, i escaped from school . i dont know why i did that probably because i wanted them to know that i need some space. i need some freedom.
Monday, September 22, 2008
parents, can't live with them..can't live without them...,
parents, can't live with them..can't live without them..
i'm not sure what i think about my parents. a good parents should know what's best and whats not. parents should give some good advice and show their child some good example not vice versa, i know that we should respect elders and parents..but we all should know that parents are just human beings, they too can make mistakes just like me, just like you,
why parents should be strict to their children's ?
because the kid's will learn to respect their elders, and not grow up in a world where they think they can do "anything" they want,
it's understandable that parents should be strict to their kid's but how can you know that your parents are too strict ?
my parents used to be strict like any other parents , let's just say that im the only child so i guess it's normal for them to be strict to me...,some people say that i'm lucky because i dont have to share their love . to tell you the truth being an only child is not so great , yes..i got their full love and attention but growing up without brother or sister is not easy.
my experience of being an only child, well yes.. i got my own space, no brother or sister to bother me,
got my own room, my own things. my parents would gave me some money and i dont have to share it, but sometimes i do feel lonely , i do feel empty. it would be so great if i have brother or sister to to talk to , to compete and fight with.
my parents did gave me love and full attention. when they got money..they bought me things, they bought whatever i wanted like computer, mobile, toys etc and if they dont want to buy for me then i probably just snap or use my secret weapon - cry...i mean i did cry alot or fake it by putting water into my eyes , sometimes it work and sometimes it dont. :))
Thursday, September 18, 2008
what i've got myself into?
i really don't know how it happened..., it was my offday from work and as usual i was watching tv when suddenly i heard my mobile rang. i picked up my mobile and saw a msg. it was a msg from my friend nina saying "hey can you help me, i really desperately needed your help..reply please" , i was confused
at first ..how desperate can she be ? i didn't reply her msg instead i just call her directly..
nina : "i have a problem and i dont know anyone else who can help me except you"
me : "what kinda problem?"
nina : "um..before that please dont be angry okay..."
me : "why ? is it something that can make me angry?"
nina : "promise me you wont be angry first~"
me : "okay i wont , now could you please spill it out"
nina : "okay ..umm..i accidently gave your mobile number to someone..and that someone probably will call you tonite..."
me ; "i see...so what's the big deal?"
nina : "you dont understand, this person always bothers me, asking for a date"
me : "then why dont you just go out with this person..end of story"
nina : "Duh~ you know i've got bf already besides this person really not my taste"
me : "okay..fine i will answer his calls ,so dont you worry about it.."
nina : "um~ it's not..."
me : " it's not what...?"
nina : " nothing.., just answer uh~ when this person calls k.."
the person did call me , so i answered it ... to tell you the truth..i was a bit surprised when i heard the person voice , it doesnt sound like a guy voice..infact it is a girl voice. "no..these girl probably got the wrong number" i thought to myself ,
"hello~ are you still there?" the girl at the end of the line asked me.
"yeah ~im still here ..well um i think you got the wrong number here.."
"...gee are you sure? coz nina gave me your number...yan is it?.."
"ah~ yeah..so..uh~ whats up?"
"nothing really...just wanna call you and say hai"
"uhuh?~ sorry but im a little curious here, you dont mind if i ask something?"
"yeah sure why not...what is it that you wanna know?"
"did you asked nina to go out on a date..for real?"
"yeah i did..but she'd turn me down"
"i see..~so...uh~ "
"oh yeah i forgot to intoduced myself to you..my name is amy"
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at first ..how desperate can she be ? i didn't reply her msg instead i just call her directly..
nina : "i have a problem and i dont know anyone else who can help me except you"
me : "what kinda problem?"
nina : "um..before that please dont be angry okay..."
me : "why ? is it something that can make me angry?"
nina : "promise me you wont be angry first~"
me : "okay i wont , now could you please spill it out"
nina : "okay ..umm..i accidently gave your mobile number to someone..and that someone probably will call you tonite..."
me ; "i see...so what's the big deal?"
nina : "you dont understand, this person always bothers me, asking for a date"
me : "then why dont you just go out with this person..end of story"
nina : "Duh~ you know i've got bf already besides this person really not my taste"
me : "okay..fine i will answer his calls ,so dont you worry about it.."
nina : "um~ it's not..."
me : " it's not what...?"
nina : " nothing.., just answer uh~ when this person calls k.."
the person did call me , so i answered it ... to tell you the truth..i was a bit surprised when i heard the person voice , it doesnt sound like a guy voice..infact it is a girl voice. "no..these girl probably got the wrong number" i thought to myself ,
"hello~ are you still there?" the girl at the end of the line asked me.
"yeah ~im still here ..well um i think you got the wrong number here.."
"...gee are you sure? coz nina gave me your number...yan is it?.."
"ah~ yeah..so..uh~ whats up?"
"nothing really...just wanna call you and say hai"
"uhuh?~ sorry but im a little curious here, you dont mind if i ask something?"
"yeah sure why not...what is it that you wanna know?"
"did you asked nina to go out on a date..for real?"
"yeah i did..but she'd turn me down"
"i see..~so...uh~ "
"oh yeah i forgot to intoduced myself to you..my name is amy"
5 foods that beat cancer
lower your risk of cancer by upping your intake of these healthy foods...
broccoli
rich in indole-3-carbinol, a chemical that combats breast cancer by converting cancer promoting oestrogen into a more protective variety. Also has sulforaphane, a chemical that promotes enzymes that can deactivate free radicals and carcinogens.
Garlic
Has immune enhancing allium compounds that buffer the immune system to fight cancer. Diallyl sulphide, a component of garlic oil, has also been shown to render carcinogens in the liver inactive.
Red grapes
Contains bioflavonoids, powerful antioxidants that work as cancer preventives. Also, resveratrol which inhibits the enzymes that can stimulate cancer cell growth and suppress immune respomse.
Mushrooms
Varieties, such as shitake, maitake and reishi, appear to help the body fight cancer and build immunity. Also rich in lectin, a protein that attacks cancerous cells and prevents them from multiplying.
Tomatoes
Source of lycopene, an antioxidants that attacks free radicals that can trigger cancer. Apparently, tomatoes produce more lycopene in warmer weather.
Saturday, September 13, 2008
collection of jokes
Q: what did the gangster's son tell his dad when he failed his examination?
A: Dad they questioned me for 3 hours but i never told them anything.
A teacher asked her class for sentences using the word "beans" ...
"My father grows beans" said one student
"My mother cooks beans" said another,
Then little johnny spoke up : " We are all human beans"
A fellow walked into a doctor's office and the receptionist asked him what he had. He said "Shingles." So she took down his name, address, medical insurance number and told him to have a seat.
A few minutes later a nurse's aid came out and asked him what he had. He said, "Shingles" , So she took down his height, weight, a complete medical history and told him to wait in the examining room.
Ten minutes later a nurse came in and asked him what he had. He said "Shingles." So she gave him a blood test, a blood pressure test, an electrocardiogram, told him to take off all his clothes and wait for the doctor.
fifteen minutes later the doctor came in and asked him what he had. He said, "Shingles." The doctor said "Where?".. He said, "Outside in the truck. Where do you want them?"
"Doctor, doctor! i'm terribly worried. I keep seeing pink stripe crocodiles every time t try to get to sleep."
"Have you seen a psychiatrist?"
"no...- i only seen pink stripe crocodiles"
A man speaks frantically into the phone, "My wife is pregnant, and her contractions are only two minutes apart!"
"Is this her first child?" the doctor queries.
"NO YOU IDIOT!" the man shouts, "THIS IS HER HUSBAND!"
Patient: " always see a blurry spots before my eyes."
Doctor: "here try these new glasses.'
Patient: "Sure , now i see the spots much clearer"
nice , caring or just plain annoying?
i thought that hanging out with you is difficult. when i was with a girl or with other guy friend , it was easy for me to open up and discussed about almost every single thing...talking about personal thing and when it comes to
hanging out with you i feel it's hard and complicated. Almost everytime hanging out or going out with you ..it's always me who do the talking, i often talked about my friends but you.., you never tell me anything about your friends..., now i'm not sure whether you don't want to talk about it or is it just that you don't have any friend other than me.., (that's sooo creepy)...i know deep down inside you're a nice guy, infact waaayy.. too nice for me.., like trying to open the door for me, asking and texting me nearly everyday and every night. i really appreciated that you care but come on it's annoying. everytime when i woke up in the morning.. my hp is full from your text msg and missed calls.
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